It's a tough truth to face up to, but not every Autstic/neurodivergent person is a good person. Many of us find out the hard way that there are members of our own community who will do harm to us collectively and individually.
It's important that we acknowledge the truth that we can always do better as a community. We don't have to be perfect. We just have to do a little better each day.
I’ve heard today that #autistic people don’t form habits, they create routines.
I thought of my ‘useful habits’ - and yeah, right, they are routines.
But then I thought: well, what’s the difference then? What is a habit if NOT a routine?
Can anyone help me with examples of what may be a habit, but not a routine?
My limitless desire for information always gets hindered by my very limited memory.
There's nothing like the ADHD experience of going to google something and immediately forgetting what you were going to search so you have to look through your recent apps to find whatever triggered the thought, but then get distracted in the apps, then just rinse and repeat.😩
How did you make a more robust sense of self? How do you know when your sense of self is strong or weak? Interested to hear people's lived experiences.
Years of dissociation and masking makes it hard to feel what is me.
Hi 💜 I'd like peoples opinion on this topic and I'll try to keep it as short as possible. The question I want feedback on is:
Am I in the right to believe something is off with me and want help, or am I trying to find excuses?
A very broad question I know, but if you want to stick around for a minute here's some background info condensed into bullet points
(Also my esteem/confidence is like zero so posting this makes me deadly anxious, very sorry if I'm too lengthy, I have no other way of expressing this)
Been in the medical health system since 2020 for depression after failing my master's thesis work
I told them maybe it's ADD/ADHD or similar because some family members has it, but they denied that because:
• I'm being treated for depression, it would be impossible to tell them apart (That's fair)
• I've made it through school/higher education on my own (The part I'm not buying, reoccurring argument)
I ask my family about it, which is a taboo topic apparently, and they say I don't have it because:
• My younger brother has a ADD diagnosis and his needs are more severe (dyslexia)
• I've made it through school/higher education on my own
(Also, I should stop finding ways to excuse my laziness)
NOT DEPRESSED anymore according to my doctor and myself, but my issues still stands, which is why they finally in 2022 started putting me in queue for a diagnosis
• For the record, I've had medically treated depression at five occasions throughout my life so far, and they all seem to happen when there's been a major change in life or I've stressed out about the future
-// Things I feel correlates to having potential neurospice or similar
Executive difficulities
• I can't for the life of me organize anything, and if I try I die inside midway through and gives up (turning a big pile of things into smaller piles that I then put back into the big pile)
• There's always something that seem more important than organizing, even if the chaos at home contribute to me feeling like a complete failure
• Can't keep track of things in my head. If not noted down they're gone immediately
Dreams big -> Huge plans -> Burning passion -> Burnout -> Feeling like a loser -> Repeat
The few times I focus on something, my body hurts from sitting in some awkward position working on it for 6-8 hours without rest (And it feels like 20 min, wait it's dark already?)
-// Things that might not have any correlation
The greater half of my friends that have stuck around is official neurospicy, including my spouse (they just seem more real to me)
Sheep 💜 (I just really like them and I've realized they've become my fixation for the last couple of years)
-// Things that would "deduct credibility points" (?) (It's basically me gatekeeping myself)
I have no issues with eye contact and I prefer seeing people IRL (Although I get awfully tired after prolonged sessions of it)
I can sleep throughout the night (Quite the gift imho), although I never really wake up rested
There is obviously way more to this but it's already become an essay and still only scratching the surface
If you made it to the end of this, congrats 🎉
If no one ends up reading or responding, it's still a win for me, because I have something to refer to if I get asked and put on the spot
Thank you for your time, have a nice day 💜
thinking of moving my masto account to a new #instance again. i'm currently on universeodon.com, i think i read something recently that made me think it's wise to switch instances.
I don't have the spoons to explain why I feel my neurodivergence is making this worse, but I need feedback or insight from other ND people on a unique experience. This will be a long thread (added in replies) but I'm hopeful there will be a few kind readers who either relate or have something supportive to share.
Here goes:
1/ @actuallyautistic@actuallyaudhd #recoveringfromreligion #LateDiagnosedAutism #actuallyautistic#neurodivergent
If you are well organized, it is a healthy trait. no one would say you are "on the OCD spectrum".. but when that trait gets out of hand we would say you have OCD, and likely would be diagnosed as such.
I see (autism) ASD and ADHD as much the same way. Most people diagnosed with it who are high functioning dont really have it at all. It is just a personality trait and all in all a positive one. high-functioning ASD are just people without social hangups, good. And people with ADHD who are high-functioning are largely just amazing multi-taskers.
The harm in putting people on a spectrum is they see themselves asa diseased, broken, something that needs "consideration.. they arent, in most cases in the right proportions these "diseases" are in fact just super powers, things more people should wisht hey have really.
The nice thing about digital art is it never has to be finished. On this one I got too deep into the image. There's a lot going on you can't see cuz the midtones are too dark...
The non-gendered warrior SHOULD be creating themself (to coin language) out of and battling dark chaos, a bright spark headed toward a dim light... they never know if there's a goal...
Is self-employment/entrepreneurship really the only way for #ActuallyAutistic folks? (Thread)
I’m 22, recent graduate (BSc in Chemistry) in a foreign country (#Australia), and unlike the vocal majority of #neurodivergent folks, don’t really feel like I have a special interest I can monetise on. I just want to clock in, clock out, spend my salary on little treats.
Any other neurodivergent people feel guilty about relaxing?
Whenever I have the opportunity to do nothing, my brain immediately starts inventing things that I should be doing.
It goes further than simply needing stimulation, my own internalised ableism tried to tell me that the only time I have value is when I'm being productive.
I'm going to throw this out there and it may sound a bit controversial, but keep in mind I have nearly 20 years's experience as an entrepreneur. Is there ANYONE who works with #neurodivergent business owners or #ActuallyAutistic business owners who don't just regurgitate the same allistic/neurotypical "marketing advice" that's sold all over the groups and "free offers"? Because I'm not seeing anyone doing anything different from the NTs. @actuallyautistic@actuallyautistics
I'm working on a new song for a comp and as the lyrics came together, I realised that in the 41 years I've been writing songs, 90% of them have been me questioning why I feel things that "normal" people don't.
At what stage do those of us who are different just accept our differences and stop holding ourselves to impossible metrics?
Me, idgaf. I learnt by the age of seven to ignore orthodoxy. You had to as an Indian kid in '70s Britain.
This is instead of leaving the project out "until I get back to it", which leads to an archaeological dig with the most recent project overflowing onto the previous project, which is overflowing onto the project before that, which... this results in a huge, oppressive, unmanageable, crushing mess.
The time/effort of putting it away and bringing it back out is far less than dealing with the mess.