Sometimes I feel guilty for having #ActuallyBipolar in my profile because nothing ever happens anymore but now a lot of the warning signs for #hypomania and a very slight #psychosis are showing up. I have doubts that this is the correct way to interpret what's happening anymore and I'm exploring that but it's basically the same thing that always happens anyway.
Don't worry. I have a concrete plan and support who has been alerted already.
I also have medication in case of emergency. That's useful to counteract psychosis and insomnia. So far I'm just using a different one to force myself to sleep.
The proper way to deal with this is to first of all not panic, second of all to not take risks, then start reducing as much stress as possible and make sure you're sleeping no matter what. If you think you can't handle it on your own, then you probably can't and you should get help.
One of my weird quirks is I can't listen to music in the background. It hugely distracts from what I'm doing and so becomes irritating.
I like music, but my world is free of it unless my main task is listening to music, or at movies, concerts, clubbing, etc.. I don't even listen to music in a car.
I get the same problem with television in the background, even if it's muted. Changing background visuals are as distracting as music.
A small favour please. I can't read large blocks of text when I'm depressed (too overwhelming) or hypomanic (can't focus). Anything past about 6-7 lines long is too much.
If you break up long paragraphs into shorter ones, it's works for me. I'm okay with long posts, or complex topics, but I am simply daunted by a lot of continuous text. And it's difficult to keep my place while reading a large block of text.
Watching #ModernLove on #Prime - really enjoying it so far, just finished the #bipolar episode - don’t know how accurate it was or not but it was powerful stuff
I don't get to get out much or very far due to #mecfs as well as #bipolar, but I'm super lucky to live with my back gate leading directly to a decent sized park.
So I go for short walks with my wife and dog, or just by myself sometimes. And since being on the fediverse I've been encouraged to pay more attention to things.
I'm becoming the world's foremost expert on this park, be it fauna, flora, features, demographics of visitors (including dogs) and things like the rate at which it gets mowed/maintained.
And I still keep learning more and more all the time! Get yourself to some green space if you can! And if you want a bonus challenge, Use plantnet.org's phone app to identify a plant or two!
Well my psychiatrist rang, he does not want to discharge me after all. He was slightly cautious about my eventual work trip to Australia and is going to speak to a specialist pharmacist and formulate a plan to minimise disruption to my sleep and medication so the risk of me spectacularly relapsing is reduced. He’s also going to write me a letter for my new university confirming my #bipolar diagnosis and treatment, so that I can get student disability support. I like that when he rings he introduces himself as “Firstname Lastname”, not “Dr Lastname”. He’s a good egg.
I gain weight during depression episodes. The last few rows of the table show I added 9 pounds from 13 June to 20 July 2023. I crave high carbohydrate food when I'm depressed and I have little control over this.
Every year I lose about 30 pounds - I'm good at it. But it comes back in the next depression episode.
I'll be adding notes on easy mood / medicine charts and weight loss in replies to this post, so bookmark and check back in 2-3 days.
New introduction for a new instance! Thank you very much for letting me join the #BeigeParty, I’m pleased to be here. I’m a #criminology researcher and in a couple of months I’ll be starting a #PhD in #psychology#MentalHealth looking at sexual risk taking and sexual relationships in people living with a diagnosis of “borderline personality disorder”. I’m very excited about this, I’m pretty old for a PhD student (49!) but I bring a lot of experience in working with people with complex mental health issues. I also have my own, I have lived with #bipolar and #anxiety since childhood.
I have #CFS and #Bipolar which can make it hard to get out much so seeing so much of the world, so seeing all the wonderful posts here has been an absolute joy.
Ah, there's nothing like having those fucked up thoughts about leaving everything behind and vanishing to end your life. It's a passive thought, not active.
But it's out of no where and I'm really tired of feeling like this.
Today I discovered that not only is July #Disability Pride Month but also that we have a flag. It is so well done and extremely meaningful. It was created by Ann Magill, a disabled writer.
The entire thing will not fit into the thumbnail but if you open the image, it will tell you what each color and flag feature stands for. It is also in the alt text if you are unable to open it.
I got 8 hours sleep last night which is double what I’ve been managing of late. Thank fck for that as my #hypomania has been getting out of control. I narrowly avoided a full on war with a senior manager at work, and nearly fell out with an old friend on Twitter, all the while feeling angry, fighty and on the verge of tears. Hoping that the wired rage will now subside. And the #hypersexuality. #bipolar is complete mind fckery #cyclothymia
New here, moved over from twitter in case that platform completely dies.
I'm Elliott, I'm about to start the Open Degree at the OU, with modules centering around sociology, biology, and psychology. I also volunteer as a Healthwatch Essex research ambassador, and with the Hamelin Trust as a peer lead on their bfriends project.
Because there was a mixup I didn’t get to attend my last phone appt with my psychiatrist. I was half expecting them to say it was my fault and discharge me, but they’ve given me another appointment. There are 3 things I need him to do for me. 1) get my GP to let me go back to monthly meds pickups 2) write me a letter confirming my Dx that I can use for benefits and disabled students allowance claims 3) advise me on how to manage my meds/#MentalHealth when I travel to Australia #bipolar
Tonight’s #watercolor of a western desert. My #anxiety is less today and doing a watercolor seemed right again. Where I live the deserts get burning hot and freezing cold (sometimes both in just 12 hours). The heat I can do without, but I love the sense of solitude. Tomorrow I’ll be spending a bit of time driving through the desert and into the mountains. I’m looking forward to seeing the wide vistas in a region I haven’t visited in a while. #bipolar#cPTSD#MastoArt
I woke up at 7pm today. Tomorrow I'll probably get up at 9pm. Around this time next week, I'll be waking up at 7am.
This is normal for me. I have a rare-ish circadian rhythm disorder known as #Non24. My sleep cycle doesn't track with the sun. It's not at all rare amongst people who are blind, but it's rare amongst sighted people.
I also suspect it's actually more common than believed & there are people out there reputed to be lazy, immature, or erratic when they just can't sleep normally.
I recently stumbled upon an excellent depiction of DSPD in an episode of a series called "Modern Love". Specifically: S2 E2 - "The Night Girl Finds a Day Boy".
The series is excellent for many reasons. Each episode is a short-form vignette. The vignettes show lots of diversity, and "S1 E3" includes an accurate depiction of bipolar disorder.