@ashleyspencer Did you follow a load of people who came over from Twitter? Because I did that, and now I can count on the fingers of one hand the amount of them who stayed.
On the other hand, I found loads of cool new people 😊
@DJDarren I follow everyone who has created an account on my server, but some are inactive accounts or don’t post. When I first came to Mastodon in 2022 I followed a lot of Twitter people that were on here for one day and they went back to Twitter. Some stick around.
Sometimes I wonder if I’ll ever have a stable flow to my days, sleep especially. If it’s just me and there are no demands then whatevs. But we inhabit a world that always seems to have one #demand or another. Due dates, schedules, meetings, whatever rando decides you need to talk to them at exactly that moment.
In my perfect world there would be a #buffer… space and time. It would allow us to respond as we were ready without broadcasting the delay to outsiders.
@actuallyautistic#ActuallyAutistic what are everyone’s thoughts on signing cards (birthday, etc.) at work, where you do not really know the person, but there is an implied expectation that you do so
@filmfreak75@actuallyautistic use ChatGPT to generate some generic fluff and write that. It saves you the mental effort to think of something. Yes I have done this.
it's Tasia's birthday! can you help me make her day special? she's been struggling securing donations for basic necessities like food and healthcare. anything helps!
Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 220 , Tuesday 04/06/2024
My Pavlovian response got me up at 06:30, so hobbled down to breakfast.
The meds the Doc gave me yesterday are doing the biz as far as reducing the pain goes, if not the swelling.
It’s so nice to be able to walk again , even if it is only a shuffling gait!
The meds are also messing with my digestive system, had an egg butty for lunch which grumbled its way thru me this afternoon. So rather than a some ham & a bit of salad for tea it was soup, again !
Oh I hope this speed of recovery is maintained!
Final Thoughts.
Every thought I have at the moment is directed at getting my foot back to normal & not looking like a prop front the Elephant Man !
Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖
@dgar@Tim_McTuffty@mathi_gwithyas oi I have just rebuilt it after it was totalled by the rogue grey squirrel in their surprise raid. They also took all the nuts!
Loneliness hit me hard today. And the big contradiction is that I also feel better alone being autistic and I know that there is no solution to this. So how do you cope with this my fellow autistic?
@Cassandra Me too but I realize that I miss interaction in person, I miss this connection, I miss just hang out physically with someone. It’s hard to explain.
Hmm. Used to be my most productive hours were after work and evening. That shifted until after kid was asleep. But now I’m finding an early bedtime and waking around 2 or 3am may be a better cycle. Rested, energetic, and no people! Yay!
It’s exhausting: the process of realisation that you’re #actuallyAutistic and unpicking 40yrs of fudges and workarounds so entrenched that you forget you’re going against your own nature, but it’s been costing you in energy, identity and self-esteem the whole time.
And I know the office tea-round seems like a fucking PATHETIC thing to lose sleep over, but imagine what it does to your confidence to feel incompetent about something so trivial. 😳
@drandrewv2
Or 20+ years of head-tilts from team-mates when you describe your take on a situation, and nobody ever tells you that what they're puzzled by is the angle you're looking at it from.
@actuallyautistic#actuallyautistic Any tips on how to deal with imposter syndrome? 😅 It's really been affecting me lately, and I'm not sure why.
I feel like I can never quite be certain that the things I KNOW are true about myself are actually true, like my brain is willingly playing tricks on itself.
@chevalier26@actuallyautistic For me it's helpful to immediately recognise, that it's just imposter syndrom.
That way I remember that I've gone through it before and have a shortcut to get out of it.
Nowadays I usually only get imposter syndrom, when I'm in a phase, where my memory problems get worse, but even then, remembering that it's just imposter syndrom and that I'll remember, why my current thoughts are inappropriate, helps for the feeling to not become as strong and wear of quicker.
@hauchvonstaub@actuallyautistic That's very true. It does help me if I confront it head-on and basically say "this is a thought process I'm having right now, and it will pass" and that's the truth 100% of the time, even if it feels like it'll last an eternity.
It's like if I "feel blue" or have a period where I am not particularly happy for some reason (e.g., autistic burnout before I knew what autistic burnout was), I know it will pass and I'll go back to being my true self in time.
I firmly believe that my autistic burnout around 45 is linked to the beginning of perimenopause.
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Being Neurodivergent, Hormones, Burnout Crisis, and Menopause
“our […] hormonal changes is different due to the way our brains and nervous system are wired. This unprecedented change in our physical bodies, our chemical makeup, and our brain can mean autistic, AuDHD and other ND people can […] experience cycles of extreme burnout crisis”
it's Tasia's birthday! can you help me make her day special? she's been struggling securing donations for basic necessities like food and healthcare. anything helps!
Soo.... Tomorrow is my birthday and I have my usual payment links as well as my wish list. If anyone is feeling generous. It's mostly needed items but there's a few treats too 😁