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MAX CAVALERA On Re-Recording SEPULTURA's Schizophrenia Album - "I Wanted To Revisit Those Songs And Give Them The Treatment They Deserve; How I Imagined Them To Be When I Was A Kid" (Video)
Dies betrifft sehr viele Menschen und die werden meistens ausgeschlossen, ausser sie dienen dem Profit der Konzerne und werden dafür ausgenutzt.
»Wissen: Anders im Kopf - Neurodiversität als Stärke.
Psychische Leiden wie Autismus, Schizophrenie oder eine bipolare Störung können nützlich sein. Die Evolutionsgeschichte zeigt: Neurodiversität ist ein Erfolgsmodell«
You may know I was diagnosed with autism 10yrs ago. You may not know I was also diagnosed with schizophrenia at the same time. Today is World Schizophrenia
Awareness Day (1). Here in so-called Australia, schizophrenia affects between 150,000-200,000 humans (2).
You might know autism and ADHD/ADD are forms of neurodivergence, but did you
know that schizophrenia social anxiety/anxiety disorders and depression are as well?
Neurodivergence means having a different brain to what is historically, clinically and socially classified as “normal”. (shudder)
Fortunately for the neurospicy like me, the Social Model of Disability is seeing medical definitions rewritten with a healthier focus, changing outdated societal ideologies and expectations.
My form of schizophrenia is visceral (3). When I’m tired, stressed, or anxious, my
symptoms can arise despite daily medications. I see, hear, and feel bugs. Flying, buzzing, crawling insects. Bugs creeping on my scalp and into my skin. It’s usually a speck of dust. Sometimes, it’s actually an insect. An offset of my schizophrenia is a cognitive disability (4) (confused thinking, loss of words, disjointed understanding, and
forgetfulness).
There is too much misinformation on how schizophrenia manifests. Science has not discovered irrefutably what causes it; however, mine was likely brought on by excessive stress and poor health maintenance.
When the word “crazy” is so easily used as a gross negative, it paints schizophrenics as bad people with uncontrollable brains leading to dangerous behaviour. We see this stereotype in the media when individuals enact incomprehensible harm (5). More often, the individual is just a massive angry douche. To be clear: people with schizophrenia are rarely violent, and when they are it is usually self-harm (6).
I’m not prone to hyperbole, but every time I hear someone use the term “crazy”
derogatorily, it HURTS me. It means you consider ME suboptimal.
I know language is difficult to change. Hell, I’m almost 50 & struggle with using “crazy”, particularly directed at myself. We stopped using other harmful words in my lifetime, so we can stop using this one too.
Od roku 2016 swierdzono u mnie chorobę psychiczną, która nazywa się schizofrenia paranoidalna.
Biorę codziennie leki, moja schizofrenia jest trudna do leczenia, ciężko jest dobrać leki. Mimo to, że je biorę... to cierpi na tym moj wyglad, ale biorąc leki to jakoś funkcjonuje. Wolę się dobrze czuć.
Moja schizofrenia, aktualnie to urojenia i dopowiadania sobie. Jednak bardzo dziękuję każdemu z mojej rodziny... że nauczyli mnie mówić prawdy i potrafię przyznać się do winy.
Jednak to mnie męczy w głębi duszy, że kiedyś się pogorszy moj stan zdrowia. I dopiero zobaczę co to prawdziwa schizofrenia.
An amazing story: A catatonic woman awakened after 20 years. Her story may change psychiatry.
New research suggests that a subset of patients with psychiatric conditions such as schizophrenia may actually have autoimmune disease that attacks the brain
Something very interesting I accidentally came across while investigating what neurotransmitters are involved in an orgasm (turns out to be basically all of them, but oxytocin and vasopressin are specific to sex, love and friendship):
One huge thing about many developmental brain disorders is that many of them can be nipped in the bud if intervention happens early. The earlier, the better. And much of it is simply about spending quality time with the kid and ensuring that they have a safe and supportive environment in school. That last one is a challenge, because kids can be toxic as hell, and it's usually when the adults aren't looking.
I'm neurodiverse and when I was pre-school age, my parents were concerned for me. There weren't many kids to play with in my neighbourhood, so I often played alone. They even put a classified ad in the newspaper to find playmates for me, but it didn't work. I've later learned that if kids don't get to play together at that crucial age, it will impair social learning later in life. Foundational brain circuitry for socialisation is formed at that time, and you can't fully fix it later.
Brain (nervous system) dysfunction can be demarcated, for the sake of clarity, between genetically or cognitively caused
E.g., the behaviour that is diagnosed as #schizophrenia, can be a #genetic or cognitively caused phenomena. Although, medically, only the former should be diagnosed as schizophrenia
As for the latter, mistaken beliefs such as hearing "god" in the mind (dualism) can cause behaviours that mirror schizophrenia, but, can be mitigated with education
This Stranger, My Son: A Mother’s Story (1968) by Louise Wilson
Yesterday, I read This Stranger My Son: A Mother’s Story (1968) by Louise Wilson. It is about a family’s experience with schizophrenia. Aside from the consistency with which clinicians blamed Louise Wilson and her husband for the illness of their son, a nonsense that has disappeared in its more blatant forms but still persists in more subtle narratives of some today, the book is still remarkably relevant for its descriptions of family turmoil and the paucity of healthcare or social supports for parents and their severely ill children. In fact, I think it is the best of several books I have read about the experiences of parents seeking help for their children with serious mental illnesses—it is honest and beautifully written.
Another aspect of the book that surprised me was Louise’s description of her son’s behaviors from early childhood—difficulty sleeping, a need for control, precocious early vocabulary with full sentences, and hyperactivity—all of these signs my wife and I saw in our daughter who is diagnosed with schizophrenia. Yet, until very recently with neuroscientists describing it as a developmental disorder that may begin in early pregnancy, the standard narrative in psychiatry has been that schizophrenia appears in the late teens or early twenties. Yet, here is a book written in the 1960s by a mother who describes warning signs from the time her son was a toddler.
Other content that surprised me in the book was the intelligence of two psychiatrists Louise Wilson encountered in the early 1960s:
One, Dr. Howard Brewster, diagnosed Louise’s son with schizophrenia only after several weeks of inpatient evaluation. When asked by the parents for a prognosis, he measuredly said of schizophrenia, “It’s a word, that’s all, that covers a large loose category. It’s like saying, ‘tree.’ There are all kinds, firs, elms, pines. So there are many kinds and degrees of schizophrenia. The paranoid, like Tony, is distinguished by certain factors such as suspicion of others, the conviction that ‘people are against him.’ He also has feelings of grandiosity; he thinks himself better than other people, more powerful, able to do anything he wants to do. There is so much shifting about on the part of any one patient that it defies prognosis. He can be having hallucinations one week, perhaps even require restraint. And then he might be back on a responsible job a month or so later. Or the other way around. It can be a very fluid condition, you must bear that in mind. Or, it can be a permanent, incapacitating crippler.” This is what I would like to hear from a psychiatrist today. Brewster did make the mistake of blaming parents for the disorder, but he had a nuanced view of schizophrenia’s variability and its prognosis.
Well, today I slept til about 9am which is super late for me. Then about 30 mins later fell back asleep til around 11. This is after staying in bed all day yesterday playing my ps5, which I'm also doing today.
Needless to say this is outside of my norm of waking up around 7am. My head feels fucked, and I just can't use any brain function aside from vegetation via game. I tried talking to my aunt about what's going on with my head. but couldn't verbally articulate my thoughts well enough to be of any help to her with regards to helping me (that was last night after a full day of being out of home base, very exhausted).
I've discussed this quite a bit with my therapist, with regards to getting med adjustment via a couple day inpatient visit to a local behavioral health facility here in town. This is supposed to be the next step if my prn med doesn't help, otherwise this could go on for weeks or months.
If course rest and isolation from stressors is right up there in importance with the prn med. I'm kinda OK just doing nothing in a zero stimulus environment, but leaving my cave as I've had to do a few times in past few days, has made things worse.
The problem is that I have been affected by the stress from my moving and living situation, and have been working outside my comfort zone with my aunt to get my finances and life in order. I'd legit be homeless in addition to broke if she wasn't helping me, but it's taking its toll.
My aunt is now on a joint checking and savings account with me, and is fully managing it for me. I will also be canceling my credit cards. I have to tell her about literally every dollar I spend, and for the first time since divorce I'm on a budget.
Anyways, the latter bit about my finances, that's a big part of my stress and current mental and emotional degradation, and it's not going to just go away.
Anybody got any observations of an increase in #schizophrenia since #Covid began?
I tagged a post on Reddit who had some interesting things to say about it and every single comment was like "gee I wonder why?" "Ohhhh maybe it's marijuana!", completely ignoring that the commenter said the word Covid.
A little pissy about my post being taken down.
I'd love to see the numbers.
Also if each episode does damage to the brain like a heart attack does to the heart.
@juliewebgirl Curious if that is the case with diminished mental capacity, as well. Some people I know, who, post-COVID (or repeated), do not seem to have fully pulled out of brain fog--but no science or facts there, just anecdotes.
I sat in a room with my ex and 3 kids and told them I have schizoaffective disorder and we talked about what that means for me and for them.
It went really well, and lots of good questions were asked. Nobody treated me like a serial killer monster took me over.
Psychotic disorders are so stigmatized, and hard to talk about. But I felt like I owe it to all of them to arm them with real knowledge. They know I'm still the same person I was when I had the undiagnosed disorder.
It was hard to do, but also cathartic. I told them that I'm sure they will have questions as they process this on their own, and to go ahead and ask me. I'm trying to be open, doing my part to destigmatize the illness with my kids and their mother.
Also my ex apologized for misgendering me, but said that it's just hard to get used to, and she isn't doing it maliciously, she is trying to get it right. It felt sincere.
I imagine my ex will get some catharsis as well, because there were certainly times throughout our marriage when this illness made things worse. I'm sure she is having plenty of "aha" moments as she processes.
She thanked me for talking to her, in the same room. Up until I took olanzipine for the past month, this was not possible--I couldn't shelf my delusions around her long enough to feel safe talking about anything more than basic child info.
Anyways, I'm sure at some point I'll fall back into psychosis and ruin any good progress that might come of this discussion, but hopefully not.