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andrewhinton

@andrewhinton@jawns.club

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“Lacks self control”

  • Mrs Duncan (2nd grade)

Professional ruminator
https://andrewhinton.com

#ND #ADHD #CPTSD

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nyrath, to random
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This is an independent DIY search engine that focuses on non-commercial content, and attempts to show you sites you perhaps weren't aware of.

This search engine isn't particularly well equipped to answering queries posed like questions, instead try to imagine some text that might appear in the website you are looking for, and search for that.

Where this search engine really shines is finding small, old and obscure websites about some given topic

https://search.marginalia.nu/

andrewhinton,
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@nyrath @RevXenoFact It’s so weird to see someone have to explain keyword-based search like you’d describe how to use a telegraph machine 🤣 also I am old

andrewhinton, to actuallyautistic
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@actuallyautistic
FYI The Neurodivergent Conversations podcast has been doing a series on “what is autism” that I’m finding very helpful and validating. First of the series here: https://pca.st/episode/b601654c-72cc-48da-b7ab-875d30077d21

futurebird, to random
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I just re-read Neuromancer for some reason and... I still don't really get it.

Though I'm not certain it's making any particular statement. The hero mall-ninja. The wasp nest of big money. It's like a bunch of dream images each with their own resonance rattling around in what would be unfair to call 90s pastiche... because to be fair to Mr. Gibson, he invented what was later imitated.

But, yeah. I still don't really get it.

andrewhinton,
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@tantramar @futurebird Neuromancer was groundbreaking mainly in—for lack of better word—the “vibe” of the world building & grunge-tech-antihero tropes. It’s all been so copied since, it feels like pastiche now.
I enjoy WG’s work more for the ideas in the story & some of the writing style than the characters or plots exactly. I just like hanging out in his brain a while.
And perhaps I’ve gotten more out of his interviews & essays than his fiction over the years.

andrewhinton, to random
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TIL about the SCP Foundation wiki — collaborative writing about fictional dangerous anomalies the foundation exists to “Secure, Contain & Protect”.
Can’t believe I didn’t know about this earlier. Reminds me of the early web.

https://scp-wiki.wikidot.com/

reichenstein, to random
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Made a huge pot of filter coffee and drank it all before leaving for the airport. (I'm in Greece). Last time I had this much coffee, I prepared a speech about Plato's Symposion. I was 17, and I wanted to ace it. I walked around Sissach, talking to myself, reciting the speech, drinking coffee between each round. I had read the book three times and with the fresh brain of a 17 year old I knew the whole narrative, names and theories, by heart. I had heard that coffee helps you staying awake. So...

andrewhinton,
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@reichenstein @carlton This guy has been behind a lot of Vico scholarship for decades btw — his stuff influenced me a lot in undergrad (late 80s)

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Donald_Phillip_Verene

pathfinder, to Autism
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@actuallyautistic

No matter how well I learnt to mask, no matter how well I learnt to get on with people, if not in any deep and meaningful way, at least superficially. There has always been one skill that I have never mastered and that is simply the ability to not upset people and especially without having the slightest idea how.

Or that I didn't for a long time, anyway. It was only when I realised that I was autistic and that the way I looked at the world was in some ways substantively different from the way many allistics looked at the world, that I began to understand something. Allistics tend to find validation externally, through feedback from the group or the part of society that they identify with, whereas autistics tend to find it within themselves, in their own reason and sense of worth and value.

Now I must stress that in many respects this is a generalisation and obviously there will be a lot of variation and degree in how true this is. But in its more extreme forms, it could very well explain many of the experiences and difficulties that I've had.

Because if someone's self-worth, the value they see in their life and actions, is almost entirely based on their interactions with the dynamics of the group they identify with, or the society they live within and not from their own judgement, then this could lead to certain choices and reactions that are quite frankly alien to someone like me and that I could easily end up in conflict with and all without really trying to.

For example, if the value of a child reflects back on its parents. Then in the extreme case the values and behaviour expected from that child, are not those of the child, but of the parents in terms of the group the child is meant to be representing them in and how well it is doing that. So any sense of divergence from that or criticism of that child, no matter how slight that might be, could easily be seen as an attack on the parents and reacted to accordingly, irrespective of how reasonable or just it was.

Equally, of course, worth, praise, or rewards, can also become divorced from any sense of reality. All that matters is that you, whether that's through your children or not, are being valued, not whether there is any justice to it. Because the truth or validity of it, is not based on how you see yourself, but only on how others see you. And in the extreme case, it doesn't even matter how they came to this view, as long as they have it. So worth can become something to be manipulated and played for and how you really are and how you actually feel about yourself becomes almost irrelevant to this process.

That people could even be this way, that everything could become how you're being perceived and anything that effects that negatively can be something to be attacked, is still something that I struggle to understand. It is so foreign to my nature. But, it certainly explains so many of the times that I've upset people, because I wasn't playing this game, or seeing the world the way I should and didn't even realise it.


andrewhinton,
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@pathfinder @actuallyautistic It explains a hell of a lot actually - like politics & public health the last 4-8 years …

andrewhinton, to random
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I have no idea how accurate the Apple Franklin show is on the facts, but the lack of hagiographic sanctimony makes it a more convincing portrayal (to me) than any “important history” version I’ve seen of this period

andrewhinton, to random
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The weather is perfect outside and as usual I feel like a failure for not somehow utilizing the opportunity for Perfect Activities One Should Always Do In Nice Weather and instead just hanging on the porch here and there between indoor chores.

alexisbushnell, to nerdfighters
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Just watched the Autism From The Inside video about the SciShow episode.

Really great response video IMO. I've sent it as a reply to the We're Here email list too in the hopes it does make its way to the SciShow team and folks are listened to.

Video is here:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_bYPdc2cT-E

Edited to tag @actuallyautistic

andrewhinton,
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@Tooden @alison @alexisbushnell @actuallyautistic Authoritarian reconditioning to fit a fictional ideal is bad for everyone, but I suppose it’s especially bad on autists

andrewhinton, to random
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Holy smokes Shogun y’all

andrewhinton,
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Shogun’s an example of how the limited series format can be the best of both worlds between cinema and novel-length fiction … but you gotta do it well. (Shogun is an exemplar)

andrewhinton, to random
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Did not know Zuck was into Deputy Marshal Sam McCloud cosplay https://posts.rat.pictures/@hannah/112326445007884637

andrewhinton, to random
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Ok I’m officially 100% over the new iOS autocorrect throwing whole damn words & sentences — sometimes complete gibberish — ahead of what I’m typing so I have to stop and edit all that before I can keep typing. If I’m lucky enough to notice it!

andrewhinton, to random
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(Checks pulse at neck) “Yep! Still burned out!”

andrewhinton,
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“That’s my secret, Cap…”

tantramar, to random
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OMG. David Gilmour’s “new” album came out 9 years ago. #TimeForMyNap https://music.apple.com/ca/album/rattle-that-lock-deluxe/1018308980

andrewhinton,
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@tantramar alas … I wanted to enjoy it …

LehtoriTuomo, to actuallyautistic Finnish
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My previous actually autistic posts gave me some excellent answers and furthered my processing a lot. Thanks to everyone involved! 💜

I self-diagnosed very late. Some big reasons have been a) not having certain stereotypical qualities such as aversion of eye contact, and b) scoring between NT and autistic in many online tests. Interestingly, the realization that I'm autistic wasn't that big identity-wise. I've understood I have certain qualities ages ago. Instead of a change in my identity, it's been a big relief to understand why I'm this and that.

There's still lots to process though. I'm only now coming to grips with how my memory works, for instance.

Ordered two books on autism, Neurotribes and the Devon Price book. Really looking forward to reading those.

#ActuallyAutistic @actuallyautistic

andrewhinton,
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@BernieDoesIt @actuallyautistic @LehtoriTuomo I’m have not. And I’m still not sure if my experience fits. But I did just remember that when I saw that Travolta movie about the boy in the bubble as a kid, it felt weirdly familiar

andrewhinton, to random
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TIL Walt Kelly wrote the oft-invoked Pogo quote, “We have met the enemy and he is us,” as part of an Earth Day inaugural poster — I’ve heard that quote so often applied to other things… seems like we’ve generally forgotten its original meaning?

dorgaldir, to Autism Dutch

I feel this so hard. Why can't people just be clear about what they want?
@actuallyautistic

andrewhinton,
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@dorgaldir @actuallyautistic My biggest problem with tests in school was interpreting the damn questions (& multiple choice answers) in the way they were supposedly intended vs the infinite permutations of nuance & “but what if instead” logics swirling in my cranium

andrewhinton,
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@twan @actuallyautistic @encthenet @miss__Tery @dorgaldir Even if the whole week of class had been about how to read an analog clock — which would’ve made the context for the question obvious to most — it makes more sense to praise the kid for creative, lateral thinking, but give them a chance to provide the right answer with an analog clock face.

andrewhinton, to random
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This is what’s called “committing to the bit” 💯🔥 https://mastodon.scot/@IHateMichaelM/112217329602289147

lifewithtrees, to mentalhealth
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Question for the @actuallyadhd and potentially @actuallyautistic

I am someone who gets migraines and have since I was 8. The reason was never uncovered, but I know migraines are more common among neuroduvergent folks like myself.

My question for you is this:

When you have pain, what do you do to help manage it so your emotional regulation goes out the window?

In short, I can be mean when I am in the midst of migraine.

I want to do better.

Any advice?

#mentalhealth #AuDHD #migraine

andrewhinton,
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@lifewithtrees @actuallyautistic @actuallyadhd Migraines can literally change your personality temporarily. Once I read that in a medical article, it framed what was going on with my chronic-migraine-suffering loved one, and why they seemed like a different person during an attack (including the ramp up and down). Helped me understand it much better (even though it still catches me off guard)

JeremyMallin, to actuallyautistic
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If you know, you know.
#ActuallyAutistic
@actuallyautistic

andrewhinton,
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@JeremyMallin @actuallyautistic Finger primed and ready

autism101, to actuallyautistic
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Do you need routines but actually dislike them at the same time?

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#AuDHD #AskingAutistics #AskADHD #ActuallyAutistic @actuallyautistic

andrewhinton,
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TheSpaceshipper, to random
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RIP Louis Gossett Jr.

Unforgettable Drac in Enemy (1985), Gerak in Stargate SG-1, he was also in The Invaders (1968), Matthew Star (1982), Captain Planet and the Planeteers (1991), Half-Life 2 (2004), Extant (2014), Watchmen (2019), among many others.

He was 87.

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andrewhinton,
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@LarsFosdal @TheSpaceshipper Different actor tho

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