Starting #keto today. I’m kind of bamboozled by the idea of no bread or granola at breakfast. But I have to give something new a go, I feel I can’t go on being so unstable and there’s not much wriggle room in my med regimen #bipolar
One of my weird quirks is I can't listen to music in the background. It hugely distracts from what I'm doing and so becomes irritating.
I like music, but my world is free of it unless my main task is listening to music, or at movies, concerts, clubbing, etc.. I don't even listen to music in a car.
I get the same problem with television in the background, even if it's muted. Changing background visuals are as distracting as music.
Wanna confirm your worst fears? Here's a reddit thread of residents showing unbelievable contempt for patients w certain diagnoses: https://reddit.com/r/Residency/s/AbReVlD4FO
Hey allies:
This is what your loved ones have to deal with. Go w them to doc appts to help advocate!
Another night of #nightmares only to wake up early and not be able to go back to sleep. I know this is all part of being #bipolar, but I seriously think my brain is trying to drive me crazy. 😕
Today I discovered that not only is July #Disability Pride Month but also that we have a flag. It is so well done and extremely meaningful. It was created by Ann Magill, a disabled writer.
The entire thing will not fit into the thumbnail but if you open the image, it will tell you what each color and flag feature stands for. It is also in the alt text if you are unable to open it.
Sometimes I feel guilty for having #ActuallyBipolar in my profile because nothing ever happens anymore but now a lot of the warning signs for #hypomania and a very slight #psychosis are showing up. I have doubts that this is the correct way to interpret what's happening anymore and I'm exploring that but it's basically the same thing that always happens anyway.
Don't worry. I have a concrete plan and support who has been alerted already.
There's so much overlap between the two that it's questionable to me if they're even separate at all. Both affect the prefrontal cortex and the dopamine reward circuits in similar ways. And the same drugs are often used for both. And #depression or #bipolar is a common side effect of #ADHD.
Hi! I'm Kelsi Lyn Star. I go by she/her pronouns.
Most people call me Star if they met me online. I used to go by xxbabygirlstar or xxSupernovaStar, so Star has always followed me somehow.
Other people call me Kelsi because they either know me IRL or they just wanted something more personal than a gamer tag.
Few people call me Kelsi Lyn.
My dog's name is Daxter. :kelsilHeart: :kelsilAngel: :kelsilParty: :kelsilPlead: He's a rescue I got at 8 weeks old. He's NINE YEARS OLD and I want to freeze him in time before he gets any older. He is my best friend. He is never very far from where I'm sitting... unless someone has food nearby. He's a melon. He's a #mutt too, but I do know he has some Australian Shepherd, Shetland Sheepdog, and Golden Retriever in him.
I'm 30. I'm currently, temporarily living with my parents in #NorthCarolina, following a pretty huge depressive spiral after losing my last job. Otherwise, I live in #Tennessee with my boyfriend of almost 3 years. Apparently I haven't lived there long enough to spell the state correctly yet, spell-check always corrects my dumb ass.
I love to love everyone. I'm a #demisexual#pansexual --basically, if I love you intimately enough, I wanna get in your pants... But my bf and I aren't poly, so sorry, I have to stay out of your pants. Bummer.
I #stream vidya games on #Twitch. (https://www.twitch.tv/kelsilynstar)
I have a schedule (Tues/Thurs/Sat) but I'm just getting back into it after being gone for 4 years, so everything is up in the air, subject to change. Right now, I'm limited to my #NintendoSwitch on my temporary set up, but I do want to branch back out eventually. I swear a lot, and try to keep my community pretty chill and inclusive.
I'm #ADHD & #bipolar (#type2, the shittier, sadder version with less mania) but on pretty reliable meds so I've been pretty damn balanced lately. I am all about talking about mental health and try to learn as much as I can.
And speaking of learning, I love to teach people things I've learned. My last job was a #TechSupport#Trainer for Corsair, but my job got moved to California and I couldn't go with it. I spiraled hard after that because I really did love that job (even if it didn't always love me). But I will still be teaching people anything I know about, because that's just who I am as a person. I try to meet everyone where they're at and share new things with them in a way that makes sense.
I like to talk a lot, but I think I've rambled enough here. Hope to get to know more people, because I'm lonely as shit! No one is a stranger in my book, just people I haven't met yet. Come say hi, I don't bite... usually.
New introduction for a new instance! Thank you very much for letting me join the #BeigeParty, I’m pleased to be here. I’m a #criminology researcher and in a couple of months I’ll be starting a #PhD in #psychology#MentalHealth looking at sexual risk taking and sexual relationships in people living with a diagnosis of “borderline personality disorder”. I’m very excited about this, I’m pretty old for a PhD student (49!) but I bring a lot of experience in working with people with complex mental health issues. I also have my own, I have lived with #bipolar and #anxiety since childhood.
was mir auf den sack geht ist diese ungleichbehandlung von psychischen erkrankungen in der gesellschaft #depressionen, #adhs oder, wie in meinem fall, #autismus sind so die "cuties" unter den psychischen störungen
hast du aber eine #psychose, #schizophrenie, #ptbs, bist #bipolar, #borderline oder hast ne #suchterkrankung dann musst du schon scheisse viel glück haben damit dich jemand abholt
The longer I struggle with psychosis in my life, the more uncomfortable I become with people casually throwing around of "psychotic, psycho, psychopath," in contexts that have nothing to do with mental illness. I see it here, I just did minutes ago, and it made me feel gross.
I am psychotic, sometimes, when unwell, but not all the time. Bipolar can have a psychotic component. Psychotic disorders have psychosis as a primary feature. But I'm not a psycho or psychopath. My ex has called me a psycho, which is unfair and cruel.
Psychopathy is a descriptive word for a particular flavor of person with traits falling under a cluster b personality disorder, specifically antisocial personality disorder, aspd. The other flavor is sociopath. Neither psychopath nor sociopath are diagnoses, they both fall under ASPD.
You possibly interact with people who experience psychosis and you don't even know it. I would hazard a guess that people here wouldn't have thought I have a psychotic disorder if I didn't talk about it ad infinitum. Me doing this actually helps with visibility of an often invisible illness, and helps towards destigmatization. I hope.
Mr Snu is all packed and ready for hospital tomorrow. We will hear early morning if there’s a bed available for sure. Once he is admitted he’ll be in for at least 2wks. It’s such a bummer, we both have our fingers crossed the ECT (electroconvulsive therapy) will help.
Well, today I slept til about 9am which is super late for me. Then about 30 mins later fell back asleep til around 11. This is after staying in bed all day yesterday playing my ps5, which I'm also doing today.
Needless to say this is outside of my norm of waking up around 7am. My head feels fucked, and I just can't use any brain function aside from vegetation via game. I tried talking to my aunt about what's going on with my head. but couldn't verbally articulate my thoughts well enough to be of any help to her with regards to helping me (that was last night after a full day of being out of home base, very exhausted).
I've discussed this quite a bit with my therapist, with regards to getting med adjustment via a couple day inpatient visit to a local behavioral health facility here in town. This is supposed to be the next step if my prn med doesn't help, otherwise this could go on for weeks or months.
If course rest and isolation from stressors is right up there in importance with the prn med. I'm kinda OK just doing nothing in a zero stimulus environment, but leaving my cave as I've had to do a few times in past few days, has made things worse.
The problem is that I have been affected by the stress from my moving and living situation, and have been working outside my comfort zone with my aunt to get my finances and life in order. I'd legit be homeless in addition to broke if she wasn't helping me, but it's taking its toll.
My aunt is now on a joint checking and savings account with me, and is fully managing it for me. I will also be canceling my credit cards. I have to tell her about literally every dollar I spend, and for the first time since divorce I'm on a budget.
Anyways, the latter bit about my finances, that's a big part of my stress and current mental and emotional degradation, and it's not going to just go away.
Well my psychiatrist rang, he does not want to discharge me after all. He was slightly cautious about my eventual work trip to Australia and is going to speak to a specialist pharmacist and formulate a plan to minimise disruption to my sleep and medication so the risk of me spectacularly relapsing is reduced. He’s also going to write me a letter for my new university confirming my #bipolar diagnosis and treatment, so that I can get student disability support. I like that when he rings he introduces himself as “Firstname Lastname”, not “Dr Lastname”. He’s a good egg.
I have #CFS and #Bipolar which can make it hard to get out much so seeing so much of the world, so seeing all the wonderful posts here has been an absolute joy.
One day when I get around to more tattoos, I’m getting a bunch of #bipolar themed ones.
Three years ago if someone had told me that I’d be fighting for my life in my late 30s due to progression of a disease that I always had in check prior, I would have told them to fuck off and stop talking nonsense.
Bipolar 1 damn near killed me. I’ve been told I should be a case study with how long the mania lasted. But with the help of friends and a final Hail Mary in lithium, I’m alive to tell the tale.
I am awake, with coffee in my veins, nearly mentally and emotionally prepared to continue with the second half of my SSDI 10 page function report.
It's super stressful because it's a pretty important form. But also my therapist and psych have received similar paperwork. My therapist has been working with me for nearly... 8 or 9 years I think (time is a soup) and she knows me better than anybody here in my life bubble, and I trust her to give an accurate picture of my function/lack of.
I've been whinging about the hell I live in having to work, and how hard it is, since the earliest days (the actual work expected from me was minimal and easy, also should be enjoyable because it was related to what i studied in college). So this won't seem like I'm complaining about it out of nowhere--complaining is pretty light descriptor for somebody who has curled up crying and psychotic on the floor of a locked office.
(Side note, I am super distracted and irritated by the starlings nesting in the rain gutter--noisy, tappy, scratchy, clicky. But it won't be my problem in a week)
Which groups are you a part of? Seems like everywhere I scroll most users fall into at least one of these categories, so just curious as to just how many do.