hiisikoloart

hiisikoloart, 3 months ago to random Finnish

I miss when packages took like a week to arrive and there was no overnight postage nonsense (unless you paid a lot for it). Now it is industry standard and I need to be ready to get my package the next day, like...I need at least few buffer days to prepare emotionally.

Also the tracking system is not great and telling me it can come between 8-16 is NOT HELPFUL.

I an up at 8 only in case it arrives now.
Madness, I tell ya.

#packages #postal #posti #mailing #Musings #thinking #tired #LemmeSleep

hiisikoloart, 2 months ago to random Finnish

I did dishes. Bread dough is rising.

Could I now deserve to buy....Valheim?

hiisikoloart, 27 days ago to random Finnish

Seems that I wont work on Monday because my cut refuses to close and I need to haul my ass to hospital on Monday morning to get it checked.

I twill try to resume usual work on Tuesday. <3

hiisikoloart, 4 months ago to Finland Finnish

Sometimes when I tell people that I am an #Absolutist (a person who doesn't do drugs, drink or eat anything with alcohol in it, and doesn't smoke any tobacco or such products) people react weirdly.

For example some doctors have been borderline expressing that they think I am lying since I am fat and have to have more vices than food and very still life style.

Almost like they can't believe someone could live life like this in #Finland where the national past time is #Alcoholism.

hiisikoloart, 2 months ago to Finland Finnish

The company that rents us this apartment is pretending that "people want to have water consumption measuring devices in their homes" so they have been slowly installing them in.

We already pay for the water per person.

The water is also more expensive this year because water companies got upset that people have been SAVING WATER AND USING IT LESS IN THIS CITY.

Nobody wants to be micromanaged this bad.

We will attempt to move before they get here.

#renting #finland #lies

hiisikoloart, 4 months ago to rude Finnish

I masked today in doctor's office, like I always do indoors in general. But today it prompted two very loud individuals to converse how they dont need to mask unless they are feeling awful. (Other whom had cough, fever, and couldn't go to work because of those and was told to go to doctor's for a note and #Covid test!!)

Of course they just know if they are sick, it's not like you can get mild symptoms or be asymptomatic AND SPREAD Covid to those who could die!

#masks #MaskUp #Rude

hiisikoloart, 1 month ago to random Finnish

Usually I say "don't do what I just did" but this time I an proud to ask everyone who just had a top surgery to be just like me - if your wound suddenly oozes puss, call healthcare provider and get to ER for antibiotics ASAP. When caught early, there wont likely be any issues with healing and they can remove any unmelted stitches as you go. <3

I am okay, newly bandaged, unstitched, and medicated and getting good after care -and still very much on my sickleave.

hiisikoloart, 3 months ago to random Finnish

Headache has turned into a tension migraine, intense nausea, and exhaustion so I'll be finishing for the day.
More work tomorrow after remote meeting with a surgeon (hopefully I'll receive good news and will be able to afford the surgery in April)...

hiisikoloart, 6 months ago to ADHD Finnish

People have suggested to me many, many times that I should become someone who goes to talk to people about my experiences in life as someone with a sleep disorder and ADHD, and 10 years as a fostercare kid.

Every single one of those people missed the point where I explained to them that I have barely enough energy for life's basic functions, so doing that kind of job is not physically possible for me.

#ADHD #IdiopathicHypersomnia #SleepDisorder

hiisikoloart, 3 months ago to random Finnish

My PC is breaking down.

I can't believe my PC is breaking down today.

If this goddamn machine doesn't keep it's shit together for at least one more year, I need to do some fucking dark magic to get a new one...which means I just might not afford freedom afterall.

I...can't believe it would start warning that it is dying today of all days....

Unbelievable.

I am so tired.

So tired.

hiisikoloart, 7 months ago to gamedev Finnish

Everyone send me good vibes or some positive universe wiggles because I have chance of getting a good position in a small game company and I really, REALLY, want it. (^_^)

#GameArt #GameDev #UIArtist #2DAssets

hiisikoloart, 4 months ago to gamedev Finnish

I got hired to write videogame narrative script and I could not be more excited to do what I love and be paid for it. :D I hope this is first of many to come!

#gamedev #writer #videogame #gamescript #scifi #horror

hiisikoloart, 5 months ago to disability Finnish

It is always "fun" to have medication that is supposed to make you sleepy and deepen your dream stages - and thus is taken before bedtime....and realize your body reacts to it paradoxically so you need tonstart taking in the morning instead and wonder if your doctor is going to be happy with you when you inform them.

Just like how stimulants calm down the endless mass of mental hyperactivity instead of making me a durasel bunny - this fucked my sleep.

#Disability #ChronicPain #ADHD

hiisikoloart, 2 months ago to trans Finnish

Things to do after my chest is fixed:

-wear a shirt, but not at home ever again (unless it is cold as fuck)
-try to do a plank for a minute, increase slowly
-go walk to a bog
-go swimming
-stretch
-have my partner's hand on my chest and feel happy
-cook meals and do dishes with relative ease
-take a selfie
-make a video saying hi to my ko-fi supporters for the first time
-maybe have a haircut first???
-buy new shirts
-feel worthy of self care
-live a happy rest of my life

#LGBTQAI #trans #enby

hiisikoloart, 3 months ago to random Finnish

The ackward moment when you wake up in the morning feeling fine when last night you thought you may have been having serious heart issues, but now can recognize it was stress palpatations that felt very strong only because I was severely sleep deprived...

So today might suck a bit, what comes to energy. (:*

hiisikoloart, 1 month ago to random Finnish

I lived now healing at home <3

hiisikoloart, 3 months ago to ADHD Finnish

I have several important things to do but instead I am waiting for this motherflipping phone call and feeling how time is dripping by and making me anxious.

#ADHD #AdultADHD

hiisikoloart, 2 months ago to random Finnish

Trying to exercise for dopamine while stressed about if we can solve our loan issues before all April surgery dates are filled (next week).

hiisikoloart, 4 months ago to ADHD Finnish

I was asked today why I haven't been to any #ADHD support things during this time that i have been diagnosed (almost 5 years now, I think).

And I said I did try to get into them, was re-tested for what would I need help with, but my problems were hard to pin down due to them being so wide, and widely supported by my own survivalt actics, they told me they couldn't send me there.

Now I have aged out of those support things.

#Finland #Neurodivergent #Aid #AdultADHD

hiisikoloart, 6 months ago to nonbinary Finnish

I am officall non-binary now. Hopefully Finland will add the third option to gender markers soon so I can have it properly recognized in all situations. (:

#NonBinary #Finland #GenderMarker

hiisikoloart, 3 months ago to trans Finnish

My freedom costs 5890€, plus travelling costs for two, and maybe overnight stay at a hotel if anesthesia makes me sick.

I am one step closer to it, and IF (big IF) bank agrees to give me a loan... I could claim my dysphoria-free life next month already. Or in April.

I am shaking and trying not to be too hopeful, in case the last steps end up collapsing under me.

#dysphoria #trans #nonbinary #LGBTQAI

hiisikoloart, 5 months ago to random Finnish

Going to try to work this evening after super early nap. Feeling like a corpse today from having so bad sleep at night....starting new medication is not fun. ):

hiisikoloart, 3 months ago to DadBin Finnish

It is so weird how many parents have adopted this mindset that it is normal that your kids keep constantly bringing in sicknesses from kindergarden and school.

No, it is not normal that parents let their sick kids to come to these spaces to infect your kids. It is not normal that measels, rubella, covid, flu, infuluenza, and foot-mouth-and-hand disease are now common.

When I was a kid, I barely ever got sick - because parents would keep sick kids AT HOME.

You can do this too.

#covid #parents

hiisikoloart, 1 month ago to random Finnish

It's funny how tonight I can't sleep because my hips and legs are in pain, my gut hurts a ton fron endo, and I am not allowed to take any painkillers before the surgery. (^_^)*

I definitely over-did everything today trying to get everything ready for when we come back from tomorrow's battle.

3.5 hours to my wake up time...

hiisikoloart, 1 month ago to disability Finnish

My day began with my brain trying to both inplode and explode at the same time. Which, for the record, is not great.

So I had a nap just so I could manage to do the dishes. That "little" task took all life out of me again.

Abled people just don't know.

#Disability #Disabeld #OutOfSpoons