Trying to recoop after getting triggered last night from something completely insignificant
To my #CPTSD it was the end of the world and I just collapsed mentally hyperly aware of how ridiculous it would look to anyone else not feeling what my nervous system was feeling
This is my life as a #TraumaSurvivor and today I'm paying for it with 11/10 physical pain
I'm thankful for friends who were #glimmers for me last night as I was drowning and couldn't do much more than cry and try to keep my mind from hurting me in so many different ways
Dalilah was my mom's only companion when I was out working 13-14 hrs a day, a bulk of that was travel on 3-4 buses
From 2015-2021 Mom only had Dalilah to talk with and she gave her so much joy and warmth
Mom's not been the same since we had to say goodbye 03.11.22 Mom knew my bun was sick but didn't understand she wasn't going to wake up again that afternoon until it happened...
I just had a sale through #threadless on all my #merch but you can still get some of my art for your hot bod, shower, a mug for tea and coffee or a pillow to cuddle at all times
To those who have held my hand through this despair my deepest most sincere gratitude I wish I had the words for how your light and voice have built me up and shown me truth
You're beautiful even if it feels difficult or like a lie
💚🐇
Hello everyone I've spent the last month and a half trying to find new clients, commission work and to ask people to share my Ko-fi Page so that I can have a sustainable income.
I feel powerless and broken. I need help. I need hope. I'm so tired.
$1932 before Friday or my world falls apart even faster - the work I am able to do needs attention so that I can have a chance to do it - I'm tired of having blood on my hands from coporate swine I can't live in peace that way I will perish