Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 213 , Tuesday 28/05/2024
Up at 6m as Mrs S. was back in work today.
Another day of fighting the agoraphobia & losing . The spectre of the world beyond the front door playing havoc with my mind.
Watching others sally forth, both in analog & digital life makes me realise how far I have to go to get better.
I would go to the GP, but the whole thing over the ADHD assessment has badly shaken my trust in them.
Also I am so very aware of the state of the NHS & I feel that I cannot deny other, more worthy souls their opportunity to get medical help.
So chores are done and now I roam the countryside around Boston in the virtual world of Fo4.
I was analysing my current play style & I am being so very logical about it - for no reason. I need to relax & play the game as I encounter it, instead of maximising companion potential or trying to do stuff in a set order.
Got a new stand for the iPad today , gotta get used to the new layout - it’s more comfortable if a little odd at the moment.
Final Thoughts.
Sometimes my autistic nature makes me miss communication cues. I fail to respond in the way folk expect , sometimes say things innocently that are misinterpreted because there are certain rules that I either don’t know or don’t understand.
I am kind by nature & like to see the best in people, I like to compliment folk, often the old adage ‘it’s nice to be nice’ comes into play.
Sometimes I do not recognise the unseen, unspoken edges of what is acceptable, people have blocked me before today for being too familiar too soon.This upsets me a great deal when it happens. Thankfully it has not happened since I got my diagnosis.
Now I know I am autistic I take steps to try & avoid the more obvious pit falls , but sometimes I forget or get a little over enthusiastic & folk bring me up short. Then I back away & something is lost.
I had hoped that my GP would help me find the help I need but they seem disinterested. For now I am on my own.
Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖
Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 120 , Sunday 25/02/2024
TL:DR Sunday & the long , dark teatime of the soul!
Ach I’m not brave enough to say what I wanted to say, so we’ll go with the usual.
Up at 6 initially, chatted with CDP 🧚♀️ for a little while then dozed off till 8.
Had a nice NMS co-op session with my bestie which cheered up an otherwise banal day.
Spent the afternoon watching ‘Payback ‘ (the tv series as opposed to the movie) , I really wish I had the energy & motivation to do more, I feel like such a lazy git !
I desperately want a takeaway for my tea, but I am also well aware of my weight issues & recent lack of exercise so I will try my hardest to keep to a more healthy diet & resist the temptation !
Ended up compromising and making an emergency stew from a tin of stewing steak, a tin of mushrooms & some sweetcorn. It was ok with a bread roll. Hell knows how many killer calories there were .
Final Thoughts.
How do you like your squirrel - lightly roasted ?
I hope to try & get out for a walk tomorrow if the weather is nice 🤞
Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖
TL:DR 4am is in fact a real time of the morning 😆 ; Shopping is so much easier when shops are empty ! ; It really does not take a lot to spin my mood around ! ; Erm is it a good thing to feel like someone has just rammed a pipe cleaner thru your heart ?
Up at 4am , read & chatted with my closest friend until 8am.
Then a relaxed breakfast & some chatting on Mastodon led on to a trip to Costco.
It was super busy with queues not seen since the pandemic !
It was a little too crowded for me & either the number of other people in there or the lights set off a dizzy spell with a helping of nausea. So even though I went in with an eye for a Black Friday bargain we weren’t in there long enough.
The afternoon was a little challenging , a close friend was deeply upset by her dog being unwell, which because they are so close I felt too, this is absolutely not their fault , simply a cascading reaction to a furry friend in distress. Love to them both ! 🫂
Then multiple triggers were set off at home, nothing too serious but enough to make me change my mind about sticking to ‘corporation pop’ & moving to something a deal stronger. 🫤
The evening finished with the last instalment of the ‘Pirates of the Caribbean ’ fest & then a mad dash to get this diary entry out !
Intermittent LHS chest pains since the 12000 step walk have been slightly worrying, but I’m still alive & my obs are all normal so nowt to worry about I hope. After much experience of my version of chest pain & A&E visits the standing order in our house is ‘it’s fine so long as I haven’t passed out!’ .
Final Thoughts:
4am is a nice time to get up, if only because I can have a sneaky snooze between 7 & 8am & still be up to make breakfast on a Sunday 😊.
I think I may have broken some plumbing slightly on my walk the other day , will try a shorter one tomorrow & see where that gets me. Not to be rude but please don’t offer ‘advice’ unless your a cardiologist with a deep knowledge of CAE . Ta 🤗🥰
It seems I can be triggered on the spin of a penny almost !
All it takes is a minor, foolish , unthinking action by another & it spoils the rest of the day. 😞
Note to the couple of folks I know who are reading this by way of trying to learn about autism in others & how to relate to them: If you trigger someone by mistake, & you notice a sudden mood swing , it might help to find out the why of it & maybe try to address the action that caused the trigger.
Thanks to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you ! 😊🫶🐿️🖖
Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 10 Wednesday 08/11/23
TL:DR Please, its a really short entry tonight ! 😂
Day 3 of the dreaded lurgy, this is really knocking me for 6 (possibly 7).
Spent most of the day near but not quite asleep with my brain trying to figure out which ear to crawl out of!
As I understand more about me I am also learning about how to get along with other ND friends & take account of their ‘eccentricities’ & not be put off by their behaviour patterns. This is a positive thing in my life.
Equally I can look at my reactions to situations now and instead of wondering what planet I am on, I can frame them within my current knowledge of ASD & start to understand the whys & the wherefores of them.
I leave you with this final chain of thought:
Once again the fact that becoming aware of being neurodivergent has positive as well as negative connotations is disconcerting , but in a nice way ! 😊
Thanks to those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you ! 😊🫶🐿️🖖
TL:DR Wet; Boiler diagnostics completed; Galaxy quest rocks; Lots of love to my Bestie ! 🤗🥰
What a day, was so tired this morning that I had a quick chat with my Bestie then went back to bed for s couple of hours.
Drove over to my Mother in Laws in the pouring rain , found that I had to clean out the tiny room where the boiler lived before I could get a proper look at it!
Powered off the boiler & spent a merry 20 minutes fighting with the front cover which hadn’t been removed in years !
Got Simon our tame plumber on a video call so that he could diagnose the fault with me - turns out that the fan is dead.
Got slightly triggered when one of my MiLs’ carers rocked up, but we both had our separate jobs to do so interaction was reduced to a quick “Good Morning”.
Sorted out getting details needed for ordering the replacement fan & then had to break the news to my MiL that yon plumber could rock up next week to fit the new fan & she need to agree to that & to paying him.
An hour & a half later we finally convinced her that this was basically the only way to go.
Several triggers were hammered home & I nearly stormed out at one point when she argued that it didn’t need to be done because “I’m immune to hypothermia” , naughty words competed vigorously to be the 1st to be released upon the world, but good manners prevailed & I held them at bay!
We finally got her to agree & raced off at speed before she could change her mind !
A stop off at Costco on the way home for a much needed hot dog & a Cherry cola , followed by Xmas treat shopping helped to get my mind back into a less stressed mode !
Got home & worked with Mrs Squirrel to complete her ASD Informants report form. Thankfully she was able to fill in a lot more than my Dad did !
Bestie went to bed early again feeling rough, wish her a speedy recovery 🤗🥰
Watched ‘Galaxy Quest’ for the first time in years & enjoyed it enormously, it was interesting to see both the nods made by the movie to the space sci-fi genre & also the nods made by other later movies to Galaxy Quest.
A quick catch up on here , & sadly it was only a quick one , has led us to me writing up my diary.
Final Thoughts:
Mother in Laws like mine are the epitome of the gags made by comedians in the late 70’s !
She could be more rude (yet to receive a thank you) awkward or just plain childish if she had wanted to , thankfully she stopped just short of getting the boiler outer casing wrapped round her like a steel straitjacket !
I cannot even begin to list the triggers bounced on from a great height. I am, in retrospect , quite pleased that I recognised some of them & took appropriate steps to minimise their impact!
I may adopt the quote : “ Never give up, Never Surrender ! “ Jason Nesmith - Galaxy Quest !
Thanks to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you ! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖
TL:DR New Year , new me ! ; Masto Peeps are totally awesome ! Mega New Years Shoutout !
I slept like the proverbial dead last night & woke up around 8:30am , had a peaceful day finishing our Star Trek fest.
Had a chat with my dear friend CDP 🧚♀️ , who was definitely feeling the after effects of pulling a 24 hour New Years Eve stint - I have never met anyone with such determination & drive , she still wanted to get her steps in & achieve her daily goals ! Cynni you are an inspiration !
Seems that although I texted every member of my family at midnight this morning & wished them a Happy New Year , not a single one of them felt the need to actually talk to me today, although all but my Dad did text me back, so I guess I should be glad of small mercies !
My New Year’s resolutions tie in closely with my plans for the year:
Lose 120lbs - 55Kg of weight
Get back to a level of fitness that allows me to maintain the lower weight & still eat.
Fight the agoraphobia so I can get out of the house.
Improve my mental health so I can function better
Discard the detritus of the last 30 years & stop hoarding.
Stop drinking daily & limit my cake intake !
See easy , simple resolutions 😆
Final Thoughts:
A new year will hopefully result in a new me , or at least a healthier , happier me.
I have have some awesome friends, & I would like to take the opportunity to recognise them here , if you want a list of top peeps to follow then this is pretty definitive! :
Victims, oops sorry, participants brace for impact 😜😂 - you may want to mute the thread after the first 1000 notifications or so 😈
Please , for the love of Nuggan self police your threads , otherwise @theropologist (also a most awesome Peep & Admin) will prolly stuff me & mount me in the Beige.Party server room !
A massive thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖
Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 51 TUESDAY! 19/12/23
TL:DR What days is it !!; Restricting my punctuation & emoji use as I tagged one of my fave VI Peeps in todays post ! ; NMS is the bees pyjamas! ; Mastodon ROCKS !
Erm I made a small error in my @Maj1 salutation this morning . . . I may , just may , have suggested it was. . . .Monday again 🙄🤦♂️
Ok I fess up , I totally said it was Monday this morning - not surprisingly this caused some confusion & more than a little piss taking on my TL 🤦♂️ 😆
I would have cottoned on to this if I hadn’t spent the morning tiding my bedroom so that I could actually move without risking serious injury whilst chatting with CDP 🧚♀️ 😊 , & then the afternoon playing NMS in co-op & solo. 🤦♂️
I would like to say that I had a more productive day , but hey ho I’ve nearly completed the 2nd truncated NMS Expedition 😆
Had fun catching up this evening & am writing this while watching S1.2 of Red Dwarf 😊
Tracked down @FreakyFwoof after losing track of him (soz mate, totally forgot your handle and was searching for your given name - my bad 😞)
Thanks to @nellie_m for reminding me of his UID ! 🙏
Final Thoughts:
Today has been a good day , I got a bit frustrated this morning , but the more I understand my triggers the more I can apply some basic dampening on them .
I am so glad that I moved to Mastodon just over a year ago , this community is unique & if you land on the right Instances & meet the right folk it is a life changing experience !
Thanks to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you ! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖
So this morning I had an appointment with the Dr concerning an ongoing illness but I hoped that I could sneak in the paperwork for the ASD Diagnostic Assessment referral.
Hell no, nothing so simple whilst the Dr said he would kick off the process he also said that I needed to complete a form requesting him to do it.
So I tootled home & searched the requisite web page, found the right section, also found that what he had told me was a load of rubbish!
It seems there is no such form, & indeed no such initial process!
I rang the surgery to try & get some clarification to be told that he would be calling me back this afternoon …. No call so far. (16:07 GMT)
Ahhhh !!!!
So yon Dr knows that I have Chronic depression & anxiety issues & now ASD , so he thinks it’s a good idea to jump up & down on a few of my triggers 🙄🤦♂️
We’ll give him until 17:30 then write that call off as not happening & chase him up tomorrow.
AOB:
Yesterday (& possibly today, I have yet to read my feed ) a number of really close friends & a couple of not so close ones were kind enough to offer me their support & help in the this ongoing journey , I want to take the opportunity to sat thank you to them all (you know who you are 🤗🥰 ) .
I have been reflecting on what this initial diagnosis means to me & have settled on these points for now:
There are a lot worse conditions I could suffer from, as a ‘high functioning ‘ ASD sufferer I am in charge of my faculties to a large extent.
I have lived with effectively a whole other persona in me & never grasped that they were there.
I know so little about autism, time to educate myself !
I wonder if my ASD is why I like bullet pointed lists so much ?
TL:DR Sometimes all it needs is 1 extra straw to break the camels’ back!
I woke this morning at 4:30am , this is not a regular occurrence but as regular Squirrel fans will know it’s not unusual either.
It was dark, it was throwing it down with rain & I started thinking of the situations that could have played out differently had I not been autistic.
The first ones were laughing at inappropriate moments as a child & not really knowing why it wasn’t funny. That got me a detention & the smack from Dad on the relevant occasions.
Then there was the classic , sat in a small night club somewhere in the vicinity of Formby, aged 19 & chatting to 2 lasses from Preston Polly & then being invited back to their static caravan for ‘coffee’ . My autistic brain (not that I realised it at the time) saw the prospect of a 3 some as a social no no & thus I missed out on any junior adult males most treasured dream (certainly back in the eighties) !
It was in the heyday of my professional life that my ASD would truly short circuit my life. (Not that I knew that it was ASD at the time obviously.)
I got head hunted for a job as a Pre-Sales consultant for a small but well known (in certain circles) tech company . This seemed like a god send, however, as anyone who knows anything about Pre-sales will tell you , it involves people, LOTS of people , in lots of social situations . I could have picked a worst job I suppose , possibly unqualified neurosurgeon?
To say this was a mistake is up there with saying that building a racing yacht out of blotting paper is a world cup winning design!
I lasted 9 months then got sacked (the 1 & only time I was sacked from a job ) for lack of revenue generation. It was never the technical side, I had that off pat inside the first month , & the presentation skills. It was the social side that killed me every time!
This killed my mental health & my professional career! I would never again work at the top end of Mainframe support or have more than a week without some sort of MH issue. At the time I & I suspect my parents just thought I was a failure, know I realise it was, at least in part , down to the ASD!
These & similar thoughts , mixed in with my GPs failure to get to grips with the referral process & call me back yesterday as promised , led to me crashing this morning , it’s that final straw that breaks the camels back.
True the grey grisly day, stamping hard on the SAD trigger, & the daily dealing with household frustrations didn’t help , but that last little straw blew my morning out the water!
I am so lucky, because I have SO many friends on Mastodon who actually care , not only if I am present & correct of a day, but actually functional, that picked me up, cheered me up by main force & had me back up & running by lunchtime !
So I leave you with this thought, be careful what stones you lift when going back to examine your life thru the lens of your ASD, try not to run at 99.5% capacity & if you are lucky enough to have any form of support structure then you will overcome!
11Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 66 Wednesday 03/01/24
TL:DR I am so very exhausted !
Today has been a quiet day, my mood has been subdued , my energy levels just above life support !
Project WOOF stumbled along, I have cut down a lot on what I have eaten , but there was still naughty stuff in there !
I had a really good gaming session with CDP 🧚♀️ , who also helped to keep my nibbling to a minimum !
I have gone wild & got a smartwatch to help track my steps , heart rate etc. Amongst other things it is reminding me to get my ass out of the chair on a regular basis!
I hope this flunk I’m in moves on tomorrow , I need to get this year started , preferably before November !
Final Thoughts:
I think everything that happend to trigger me over the holidays, that I suppressed, has ganged up with the SAD & mugged me - I hope that it will be a very short term thing!
A massive thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖
TL:DR Project WOOF is back up & walking ! ; Bit of gaming, bit of house elfing, tiny bit of eating.
Got a decent night’s sleep, even though I was up for an hour around 1am.
Road tested the new trousers this morning, a couple of laps around my favourite short walk, puffing & panting like a 90 year old , while chatting to CDP 🧚♀️, who I think thought I was about to keel over 😆
Did a load of chores when I got home.
A couple of hours on ESO helped passed the day then some solo stuff.
Used up a can of beans that were somewhat past their BBF date for my tea - maybe 500 kcals with the bread n butter , hey what doesn’t kill yer makes yer stronger !
Final Thoughts.
Ok Project WOOF is officially back on the road ! 717kcals used , 55 minutes exercise,7k steps across 3.5 miles. Yay.
Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖
Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 203 , Saturday 18/05/2024
Ruff as a bears bum today, no energy, no appetite, everything I do hurts.
It’s probably only man-flu again, I seem to catch every bug going at the moment & regular Squirrel Spotters will be aware that I’m a bit of a wuss when it comes to common or garden illness. 🙄🤦♂️
I keep plodding along, hoping that I catch a break at some point.
I am better this afternoon, this morning I felt like death warmed up, lunch was 5/6 of 2 rounds of toast - don’t ask - & tea will be venturing into the dubious gastronomic delights of a can of tommy soup.
I am a little brighter & well enough to write my diary, so that is an improvement.
Final Thoughts.
Please can someone hail a Delorean to transport me back to my 40s ?
I have to say that I am in total awe of those folk I know who live with chronic pain, chronic depression is a walk in the park in comparison, you peeps are the bravest folk I know!
Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖
Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 214 , Wednesday 29/05/2024
Up a little later today as Mrs S. was working from home.
Still fighting the agoraphobia , sometimes I wish I didn’t live so very far from my family, they would come round & drag me out.
But they live nearly 100 miles away & have their own lives.
Spent the morning totally indecisive about what to do.
Made some egg sandwiches for me n Mrs S. for lunch , then , as per had to clear up & wash the dishes too.
Ended up reading for a couple of hours then hit Fo4 after lunch.
Went wild & forsook the soup option for tea, in favour of spaghetti hoops with a couple of slices of toast - I really need to break out of the house so I can get some real food !
Final Thoughts.
Stupid brain going nuts about going outside !
I need to get myself out of this current episode , it’s not as bad as some I’ve had , but it is doing my tree in!
Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖
Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 220 , Tuesday 04/06/2024
My Pavlovian response got me up at 06:30, so hobbled down to breakfast.
The meds the Doc gave me yesterday are doing the biz as far as reducing the pain goes, if not the swelling.
It’s so nice to be able to walk again , even if it is only a shuffling gait!
The meds are also messing with my digestive system, had an egg butty for lunch which grumbled its way thru me this afternoon. So rather than a some ham & a bit of salad for tea it was soup, again !
Oh I hope this speed of recovery is maintained!
Final Thoughts.
Every thought I have at the moment is directed at getting my foot back to normal & not looking like a prop front the Elephant Man !
Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖
Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 205 , Tuesday 21/05/2024
TL:DR Late up today , so was more or less ignored. Clues to whether I’m AuDHD & if I’m going thru a burnout period came to light from fellow ND Peeps.
I had a somewhat enforced lay in this morning, in that I was so exhausted that I simply slept thru all the noise that would usually wake me up.
I finally got up around 07:30. Life obviously went on without me, even though Mrs S. was working from home.
Me: I’m a total introvert & wish to be alone.
Also Me when wife zones me out because I was late to get up: I’m so lonely !!!
Is the mind of an ND bananas or what ! (Possibly some for of nut in my case 🤦♂️ )
I risked a ‘proper’ breakfast this morning - I seem to have survived it 😊
I would normally have cleaned the bathroom today, but because I’m not feeling so good that didn’t happen. I know from past experience it won’t get done until I feel well enough, be that days or even weeks 🙄🤦♂️
I wrote a little while back , when I got the results of my assessment thru , that the Consultant Psychiatrist had suggested that I be assessed for ADHD too. That is currently on hold.
But , & here’s the thing I read a toot ( linked below) from @ashleyspencer that totally spoke to me & I recognised EVERYTHING she was talking about !
Well call me a Squirrel & bounce a walnut off me ‘ed !
I number of other folk on here have suggested that I had ADHD symptoms , but I could never put the whole package together in my own head to the point that I ‘felt’ it!
Maybe I need to pull the whole ‘getting ADHD assessment’ off the back burner ?
I also realised ,based on a toot from @pathfinder (again see the link below) that I may well be experiencing a period of autistic burnout - it seems to be so similar , in key ways to where I am at the moment. No wonder I’m struggling!
Got back into the post-apocalyptic world of Fo4 this afternoon, I had forgotten how enjoyable this game is.
Final Thoughts.
I am struck once again how much I am coming to depend on the @actuallyautistic community to help me progress on my ASD journey and understand more about me!
Special thanks to Ashley & Kevin for pointing the way today. 🙏
Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖
Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 210 , Saturday 25/05/2024
Up earlier than I wanted, Pavlovian response kicked in 🙄🤦♂️
Went for a walk this morning , the British summer was on its best behaviour & did me proud !
I saw the shadow of a butterfly, not the wee beastie itself, which inspired my muse to spout a little poem.
Tried to sit down for my lunch, first the sky went seriously dark so we had to get out & get the washing in , then the door bell went & the Postie wanted to leave a parcel with us for a neighbour. Then 3 minutes later he was back as the neighbour had appeared at their door !
For Nuggan’s nuts will I ever get this sarnie eaten!
Lunch was finally finished & followed by a lovely coffee 😊
Hovered up then watched ‘Traces’ with Mrs S.
Finished off the evening with some ‘B’ movie.
Final Thoughts.
I don’t write poetry often - but sometimes the urge takes me & I scribble a little nonsense.
Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖
Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 219 , Monday 03/06/2024
Another disturbed night, slightly better than last night because I had learnt some lessons on ewhat my foot would & would not tolerate.
Went to see the GP this morning, I have, in fact, got gout . So on a 4 day course of Colchicine … the GP was very specific about the 4 days - apparently 5 days = my entire digestive system liquifying & a decent stay in the local hospital !
The new meds are working a storm in association with the pain killers , this evening I am walking (well shuffling) sans crutches ! It hurts like hell, but importantly it is bearable !
I hope that this means that I will get some decent sleep tonight !
Also made an appointment to see yon GP about my ADHD assessment in a week or so , so the journey continues !
Final Thoughts.
I am so relieved to be coming out of the other side of this gout flare up , is has been one of the most painful experiences of my life !
Hopefully future episodes will be avoided via ongoing medication.
I really hope that seeing yon GP later this month will be a positive move in my ASD journey !
Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖
Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 216 , Friday 31/05/2024
Up just after 6am today.
A quiet day, the only thing of real note is that what ever is wrong with my left big toe is getting worse.
There are no signs of injury but it hurts to touch & is making it hard to get comfy at night.
Today I caught it as I tripped over one of the Varmints & it hurt like a bugger !
I am slowly falling apart - if anyone wants me for medical science now’s the time to get your bid on ! 😆
The weather has slowly improved today , this evening is lovely & sunny, if a little chilly !
Final Thoughts.
Even being retired, Friday is a special day. I realised it’s June tomorrow - nearly 6 months gone already !
Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖
Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 212 , Monday 27/05/2024
Up really early today (05:30) which is ironic because it’s a public holiday & I should have had a lie in.
Hey ho.
Bit of banter on Mastodon - congrats to @dgar for a very respectable 3rd place in #FediVision24 btw !
Binge watched ‘Traces’ series 2 - not a bad series !
Final Thoughts.
I was in quite a dark place this morning & wrote a whole thing on things that triggered me, but I’ve mellowed out during the day.
The upshot of this is that I have gone from epically insightful final thoughts to this ! 🙄🤦♂️ 😆
Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖
Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 205 , Monday 20/05/2024
Was up till the early hours of this morning with stomach cramps after last nights daring attempt to eat scrambled eggs & beans for tea.
Spent the day getting lots of exercise up & down the stairs to take a pew, if you get my drift.
Attempted to interact on here a couple of times but my brain is apparently on sick leave so it didn’t go exactly to plan 🙄🤦♂️
Hopefully tomorrow will be better !
Final Thoughts.
Is the babel fish truly a fish if it spends most of its life out of water ?
This & other great questions of our age will have to wait until I can think straight!
Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖