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NotThe

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I take agency over #multiplesclerosis with buckets of thick optimism. I can’t control the frayed myelin, but will it control me? I’m a frayed knot.

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purplepadma, to random
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Should people suffering from mental illness be eligible for medically assisted death? Canada plans to legalize that in 2027 – a philosopher explains the core questions https://theconversation.com/should-people-suffering-from-mental-illness-be-eligible-for-medically-assisted-death-canada-plans-to-legalize-that-in-2027-a-philosopher-explains-the-core-questions-223707?utm_source=whatsapp&utm_medium=bylinewhatsappbutton

NotThe,
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@purplepadma there’s also an article in today’s guardian about a woman from the Netherlands who was just approved to die

NotThe, to random
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First day of hoarding for the apocalypse:

Two bags of tp,
Two bags of cat litter,
Three sticks of deodorant in case the apocalypse thing doesn’t pan out.

purplepadma, to random
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I’ve just spent two hours on admin tasks I haven’t had the strength to do in the past weeks, everything from enquiring who to send my sick note to some financial stuff to trying to get a sitter for Miss Cinnamon when we go away in July. Very tired now! But pleased with what I’ve achieved

NotThe,
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@purplepadma is too! Good job!

mentallyalex, to random
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I have been called many things, some of them even pleasant! :blobcatgiggle:

I have never figured out how to accept a compliment without just dying inside a little. I really shouldn't - people are just being nice to me and that is good... right? :blobcateyesblush:

Do you ever feel awkward accepting that others find value in something you did/do/think/feel? How do you handle it?

NotThe,
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@mentallyalex @LouisIngenthron someone made the equivalent of scout badges. Things like I talked to someone today or I adulted today.

purplepadma, to random
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So are we boycotting Eurovision? Yay or nay? @TheBreadmonkey I’m looking to you for my moral compass

NotThe,
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@purplepadma @TheBreadmonkey Ben already had his upturn this week

NotThe,
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@TheBreadmonkey @purplepadma a random generation from the thing on my phone pretending to be a spell checker. Can’t wait for Apple to add AI to this, er, mix.

GrimmReality, to random
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Beige Party
Celebrating a year and a half-ish of not being a cult.
https://beige.party/@coffeepine/112396023508351041

NotThe,
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@GrimmReality @coffeepine wha?!? Not a cult?!? I joined for the promise of cultiness. It’s @TheBreadmonkey ‘s fault.

mentallyalex, to random
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There is a little girl busy explaining something rather exciting to her...father? He is older but not quite grandparent older so I'm guessing older Dad.

She is bouncing and talking with her hands and jumping excitedly as she discussed something just absolutely wonderful for her. He is laughing while she talks and has a wonderful smile on his face. He likely isn't keeping up with the story but the joy in their hearts as they move down the sidewalk is amazing. She has his hand, his attention, and all is right in the world.

NotThe,
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@mentallyalex beautifully described!

NotThe, to animals
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My tool belt acquired a salty barnacle while on the job this morning.



RickiTarr, to random
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Well dang Love Boat, this is not what I expected:

https://youtu.be/mgkWQpgZ1JQ?si=CUqyxC0mfsiuaVlF

NotThe,
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@RickiTarr @Fragglemuppet well, damn.

sheepnik, to random
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I've been having Mastodon-influenced dreams these past couple of nights. Monday was all about dealing with notifications and matching them up to posts, with the aim of streamlining them down to just one set.

Last night was all about Myfanwy and friend. I swear every time I turned over there was a vision of the two of them just watching and waiting. Plus @eclectech and @TheBreadmonkey were planning some kind of road film extravaganza for the two of them. Odd, most odd.

NotThe,
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@sheepnik @eclectech @TheBreadmonkey that seems very on brand for all involved 😁

purplepadma, to random
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I got told off a bit earlier for taking out of date sleepers I’m no longer prescribed but idc, I’m going to do it again tonight because it’s less risky than being awake and no one’s offered me any better suggestion.

NotThe,
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@purplepadma accurate assessment and one I’ve personally used before

purplepadma, to random
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CMHT called just to say that someone else from the CMHT will call tomorrow to arrange an appointment. So bit of a pointless phone call. I really don’t know what to do with myself, I can’t concentrate on anything, not even just listening to an audiobook. Reading and TV are impossible. I can’t take in all the detail on social media. But if I’m not distracted I’m constantly thinking about running away and harming myself.

NotThe,
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@purplepadma did you every try zentangles?

eclectech, to random
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I called "Where's Myfanwy in the garden of earthly delights" a series, but had only made two, which isn't enough to be called a series. So, yeah... here's number 3.

NotThe,
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@eclectech just gotta say, these make my day

purplepadma, to random
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Why am I still awake???

NotThe,
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@purplepadma you took your pill, yes?

purplepadma, to random
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Tom found me slumped on the sofa and suggested I go out, but that felt impossible. So he is coming with me, we’re going to go for a drink at a cafe. He is being so great that his kindness keeps making me cry.

NotThe,
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@purplepadma tell him a bunch of complete strangers all across the the globe love him and send him hugs for his awesome spousy-ness!

purplepadma, to random
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If I went to sleep and never woke up again that would be super fine by me

NotThe,
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@purplepadma but notsomuch me. Just saying.

purplepadma, to random
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I’m definitely on the cusp of a high, while I was walking in the sunshine just now I was feel something beyond wellbeing and into elation. I really want to go for a run this afternoon, but it may exacerbate things. Should probably do some yoga 🥱

NotThe,
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@purplepadma nice work tempering it

sheepnik, to random
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I'm done in. Don't make me move again for a very long time.

NotThe,
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@purplepadma @sheepnik ima throw my hat in here too!

purplepadma, to random
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I’m still a little anxious but today I would say mentally under the weather rather than actively unwell (or indeed OUT OF MY MIND like I was last weekend). Trying to put thoughts of work out of my mind when they crop up and focus on simple good things, like an enjoyable novel

NotThe,
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@purplepadma yes! 🫶

purplepadma, to random
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Not saying I’m known locally for my sugar dependency, but I just walked into the Spanish deli cafe and the waitress simply said, “Coca cola?”

NotThe,
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@purplepadma nothing wrong with self medicating if it works!

purplepadma, to running
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I had a good evening at the jazz last night, I just lied a lot when people asked me how I was. And I slept OK but I feel sick with anxiety this morning for NO REASON. My supervisors are being supportive so I don’t need to worry about PhD stuff. I don’t need to do anything I don’t want to today. Yet still I can’t swallow. I’ll go for a run once my grocery delivery has been, that might help

NotThe,
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@purplepadma but isn’t that the thing with that level of anxiety, that it has no reason so it can just mess with you just by being there ?

dalfen, to random
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Omg don’t you just love the cheery, musical Cologuard commercials with the singing people and talking Cologuard box

🙄😂

NotThe,
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@dalfen us of a certain age 🤭

purplepadma, to random
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For my next trick I am going to try to go out and not be Mad in public. There’s a jazz gig at our local hotel and some of our friends are going. It’s just a ten minute walk away so if I start to cry or panic I can just run home. I hope it will be relaxing but you never know.

NotThe,
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@purplepadma love the attitude!

purplepadma, to random
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I might go PING! and throw toasted bagels at his head next time I see him

NotThe,
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@purplepadma waste of perfectly good bagles

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