I had so many people tell me I DON'T have ADHD because of my hyperfocus.
I only realized I did (and did get properly tested as well) because of randomly coming across ADHD videos on youtube shorts (an awful platform, but there's always a silver lining, I suppose. ;)
@NanoRaptor I’ve been really keen to try meds but not so keen to go through a multi year process with the NHS for a diagnosis. It’s like I want a months meds to try and if they work, I’ll do the diagnosis time to get more.
@acf I was before this but less so now. I don’t know how it will pan out from here but what I see I like. I really had a very low level of functioning that needed SO MUCH WORK to get through.
For me it was like I was trying to drive down a highway without a steering wheel. Sometimes I could jank the car into pointing forward for a few hundred meters, but no matter what I did, it would eventually veer to one side and grind against the walls.
And then, after my first dose of ADHD meds, a steering wheel appeared in front of me. My response was "The fuck is this?" followed shortly by "HAS EVERYONE ELSE HAD ONE OF THESE ALL ALONG?!"
@violator it’s like I can be distracted by a thing and it doesn’t immediately dump all other thoughts and memory. The previous thoughts are there and accessible and I can put them in a place they need to be. And if the distraction turns out to be just that, a distraction I don’t need to attend to, I can just find every one of the previous thoughts I had and return to them without effort. I have never been able to do that before. And here it’s happening as I type. I know what I was doing before
@NanoRaptor@violator For me the biggest reveal was task paralysis. WTH do you mean people can just start something whenever and not sit there like there's an invisible force field in your way?
@bartreardon@violator Ill have to look out for that one tomorrow! Back to work after a long weekend and it hits me from time to time there mostly.
Distraction was my big thing. “Dana how’s your morning?” Would empty my head of everything and I’d almost have to re derive where I even was in the world after I answer.
I have a status indicator on my task bar that constantly outputs the last line of my work log so that if someone asks me what I'm working on I CAN ACTUALLY TELL THEM SOMETHING instead of looking at them blankly.
Yeah, the distraction and lack of motivation/focus were the 2 big ones I noticed. “You mean normal people can decide to do something and then just…do it? FUCK ALL OF Y’ALL.”
I felt elated at finally being able to function on a basic level, and angry that so much of my life had been such a (needless) struggle before.
@KydiaMusic@bartreardon@violator just tonight here at mums (while I’m around someone for my first dose) I’m doing things automatically that I’d wanted to start and never completed before. Like tidying for her and little helpful things I know make her life easier. It’s happening automatically. And it’s not work to push myself to do it.
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