Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 220 , Tuesday 04/06/2024
My Pavlovian response got me up at 06:30, so hobbled down to breakfast.
The meds the Doc gave me yesterday are doing the biz as far as reducing the pain goes, if not the swelling.
It’s so nice to be able to walk again , even if it is only a shuffling gait!
The meds are also messing with my digestive system, had an egg butty for lunch which grumbled its way thru me this afternoon. So rather than a some ham & a bit of salad for tea it was soup, again !
Oh I hope this speed of recovery is maintained!
Final Thoughts.
Every thought I have at the moment is directed at getting my foot back to normal & not looking like a prop front the Elephant Man !
Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖
@Tim_McTuffty
Yay for the meds!! 😁
I hope you'll feel better soon... 🤗
And not eating too much can also be that you need less as you do less now? You burn less because you're more stationary? 😊
Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 216 , Friday 31/05/2024
Up just after 6am today.
A quiet day, the only thing of real note is that what ever is wrong with my left big toe is getting worse.
There are no signs of injury but it hurts to touch & is making it hard to get comfy at night.
Today I caught it as I tripped over one of the Varmints & it hurt like a bugger !
I am slowly falling apart - if anyone wants me for medical science now’s the time to get your bid on ! 😆
The weather has slowly improved today , this evening is lovely & sunny, if a little chilly !
Final Thoughts.
Even being retired, Friday is a special day. I realised it’s June tomorrow - nearly 6 months gone already !
Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖
@Tim_McTuffty
Good day sweets,
I hope you get to a GP and have that foot checked out before it falls off 😉 better be safe than sorry!
I've had a busy day where I helped mum. And worried over my gall, she can't seem to catch a break... 😔
Hope you're having a good night!
🤗 Hugs from me and boops from my royal sweetness 🐾 💜
@Tim_McTuffty
Haha be careful with all the foods... Or I'll have to make AI Skwerl images where the body Armour doesn't fit the Skwerl anymore as he's too round 😂 Hihi.... 😉
Hope you're having a good night sweets. Hey, it's almost Friyay there 😉
Alright I uploaded my pictures to #Pixelfed just now!
I'll share the links here, there are two posts, one for upstairs and one for downstairs.
Dad sent me some pics as well, so I may upload some of those as well. And I made two quick videos but I need to make them smaller to fit on this server. 😊 I'm working on it!
But I had a restless night so am a bit slow this morning.... 🥱
Hope it gives a good impression of the house. I didn't get any pictures from the outside and we didn't stay too long. It was so busy (I felt very anxious with so many people, even though they'll be my new neighbors, time enough to meet them later on) and it was very warm (28°C) and I was also tired... So my parents and I walked around, took pics and the vids I'll share soon, and we headed home again before traffic would be bad...
Time enough in a few months to take make pictures when it's done and when I'll be working on it... Alone and with friends! 😁
I ordered the new bed for Arwen! 😁 It should arrive somewhere between 8-22 on Thursday 😂 a very wide window for now... Hopefully they'll update so I know when I need to be up and about and all to receive the big parcel. It's an XXL bed after all! (but then she has space and her friend Bas can join as well when he visits).
I also put in the transfers for the rent. I had to make some minor changes in the bank app and now it will automatically pay the new rent a week in advance of the key date. So it should be in the coop's account before that, as their rules state... I put it in to do it automatically, as I know my brain and otherwise I'd keep thinking about it...
Like I do with the municipality transfer. Four weeks ahead, so if all is well, I can enter my new details next Monday. So of course I'm reminding myself several times a day of that 😂
Hey ho! Slowly things are coming together. I saw the paint I need is on discount this week, so maybe I can grab myself a bucket today (depending on the time of delivery for Arwen's bed). It's a decent discount so it would be good to get the paint in advance then...
Thanks for following my journey! It's an exciting and scary one, so I'm glad to have you with me!
Another two small steps in this journey have been taken. 😊
I got Arwen's new bed and it's awesome. 🥰 Now Arwen needs to learn to love it, I guess...
And I got the purple paint for the big wall in the living room and the back wall in the bedroom. 😊 It's the same color as I have in the living room now and I just love it...
Now I only need some white paint... But even with 40% discount, the color still was quite expensive. So June will be when I get the big bucket of white. 😊
Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 214 , Wednesday 29/05/2024
Up a little later today as Mrs S. was working from home.
Still fighting the agoraphobia , sometimes I wish I didn’t live so very far from my family, they would come round & drag me out.
But they live nearly 100 miles away & have their own lives.
Spent the morning totally indecisive about what to do.
Made some egg sandwiches for me n Mrs S. for lunch , then , as per had to clear up & wash the dishes too.
Ended up reading for a couple of hours then hit Fo4 after lunch.
Went wild & forsook the soup option for tea, in favour of spaghetti hoops with a couple of slices of toast - I really need to break out of the house so I can get some real food !
Final Thoughts.
Stupid brain going nuts about going outside !
I need to get myself out of this current episode , it’s not as bad as some I’ve had , but it is doing my tree in!
Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖
@Tim_McTuffty
Ello sweets 😘
Sorry you're struggling with not being able to get out (and get decent stuffs). I'm even further away so I can't do anything to help, except be here to chat if you'd like...
Hopefully you had a good evening and you're having a good night!
🤗 😘
Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 213 , Tuesday 28/05/2024
Up at 6m as Mrs S. was back in work today.
Another day of fighting the agoraphobia & losing . The spectre of the world beyond the front door playing havoc with my mind.
Watching others sally forth, both in analog & digital life makes me realise how far I have to go to get better.
I would go to the GP, but the whole thing over the ADHD assessment has badly shaken my trust in them.
Also I am so very aware of the state of the NHS & I feel that I cannot deny other, more worthy souls their opportunity to get medical help.
So chores are done and now I roam the countryside around Boston in the virtual world of Fo4.
I was analysing my current play style & I am being so very logical about it - for no reason. I need to relax & play the game as I encounter it, instead of maximising companion potential or trying to do stuff in a set order.
Got a new stand for the iPad today , gotta get used to the new layout - it’s more comfortable if a little odd at the moment.
Final Thoughts.
Sometimes my autistic nature makes me miss communication cues. I fail to respond in the way folk expect , sometimes say things innocently that are misinterpreted because there are certain rules that I either don’t know or don’t understand.
I am kind by nature & like to see the best in people, I like to compliment folk, often the old adage ‘it’s nice to be nice’ comes into play.
Sometimes I do not recognise the unseen, unspoken edges of what is acceptable, people have blocked me before today for being too familiar too soon.This upsets me a great deal when it happens. Thankfully it has not happened since I got my diagnosis.
Now I know I am autistic I take steps to try & avoid the more obvious pit falls , but sometimes I forget or get a little over enthusiastic & folk bring me up short. Then I back away & something is lost.
I had hoped that my GP would help me find the help I need but they seem disinterested. For now I am on my own.
Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖
@Tim_McTuffty
Ello sweets!
🤗 We all have good, bad and OK days. It's just how things go I guess...
Try to get the help you may need. You're not stealing it from anyone, as they can also still make their appointment. And you not making one will open op just one time slot, so it's not like no one can come before it after you that day 😉 I know the feeling but if you do struggle, your need for help is just as valid as the need from others. And I guess we'll always have doctors that will disappoint us, especially is #NeuroSpicy people that have a different view on our needs than most professionals have (if that makes sense). If you think you could use help, you do! No one thinks "I think I need help" when they don't need it....
Just my two cents on this. But I totally understand as I also don't like the GP and I have trust issues with docs as well, after so many things doing wrong...
Have a good day sweets, take it one day at a time. And enjoy FO4 in anyway you'd like. It's your game, after all... 😉
🤗 😘 Luv from the silly Pixy and wet kisses from the sweetest brown-haired gall 🐾 💜
@Tim_McTuffty
You're very welcome 🌸 hope it helps. It's just my experience and vision... But if sharing that can help, I gladly do so. 🫂 @actuallyautistic
Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 212 , Monday 27/05/2024
Up really early today (05:30) which is ironic because it’s a public holiday & I should have had a lie in.
Hey ho.
Bit of banter on Mastodon - congrats to @dgar for a very respectable 3rd place in #FediVision24 btw !
Binge watched ‘Traces’ series 2 - not a bad series !
Final Thoughts.
I was in quite a dark place this morning & wrote a whole thing on things that triggered me, but I’ve mellowed out during the day.
The upshot of this is that I have gone from epically insightful final thoughts to this ! 🙄🤦♂️ 😆
Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖
@Tim_McTuffty
Good night master Skwerl 😘 hope you're having a good one! 😁
Hope the writing helped you feel better. And I hope the bins didn't eat you 😉 (so that missus Skwerl won't put you to the street 😉).
Sweet dreams and hopefully I can catch you again in the morning! 🤗 😘
@Tim_McTuffty
Owww and congrats Dgar! I haven't seen the results yet as I've been busy yesterday and then I was exhausted. But a third place out of over 70 entries, that's amazeballs! 😁