I can’t take this shit. And everyone who tries to tell me my life is worth living is only prolonging and worsening this pain I live in. I wish it would fucking stop.
I’m too embarrassed of myself to actually check but I am pretty darn sure that I’ve been sent, cumulatively over the however many months I’ve been panhandling here, over a thousand dollars, and it’s all just gone to stupid shit. I could’ve saved at least some of that and bought a fucking van already, and gotten my...
Yeah, I say my life is chaotic but that is by and large my own doing. For years now I’ve lived each day as if it were disjointed from the next. And that’s a lot of why I’m here in the hole I’m in.
Years ago when I was homeless and kinda gave a fuck about myself, I could actually do things like pay a phone bill every month.
And I’m hoping that once I beat malnutrition, if that ever happens, I’ll be able to have the mental wherewithal to start creating content, which will broaden my fundraising abilities.
What happens when someone is chronically off and on starving for months, constantly stressed, and then all of the sudden you give them $300 for groceries? They buy sushi and iced tea and strawberries and other dumb shit and blow it in a week....
I have an iPhone 12 Mini which someone gave me probably a year ago now. The other day someone asked to borrow it, then started twacking out and ditched me....
I put off the food stamps thing, again, because I didn’t sleep well and felt like shit. I’d be in this same boat anyways if I had gotten them fixed, because my food stamps renew on the 2nd....
You may have seen my posts about this person I used to be friends with—I wish I could tell you their name, because it’s such a cool name, but alas, they will always be, to you, the person who won’t talk to me anymore, my ex-friend, or them....
I often forget that with one exception I have never, ever, ever been happy with another living thing in the room. I hate speaking—I wish I had been born mute because the anxiety that’s been tied around my neck as long as I can remember makes everything come out wrong. I wish I hadn’t been Narcan’d. When I finally fucking...
It turns out that accommodating spoiled aristocrats who order shit they don’t need from halfway across the Earth on a whim has a cost, and let me tell you: that cost isn’t coming out of the executives’ salaries!...
I’m having a pretty fucked off day. Barely ate yesterday, barely ate today. I would probably have my food stamps back in pocket if I didn’t have to babysit a sick friend yesterday (I hate when people tell me I’m not responsible for others’ stupid shit, because I know that—I nail myself to my own cross, I care about...
He had OK opinions about imperialism and the class divide. He said that alternative pronouns were “breaking the grammar”, lol! Who will think of the grammar!!!...
I’m not skeptical per se. I’ve just been propagandized so fucking much—I grew up watching those propagandocumentaries on the National Geographic Channel about the DPRK, etc., fr that was what I watched instead of cartoons lol....
I don't want to live much longer
I can’t take this shit. And everyone who tries to tell me my life is worth living is only prolonging and worsening this pain I live in. I wish it would fucking stop.
Trying this again—I'm fucking starving and it sucks (hexbear.net)
Also Creamsicle wants guitar lessons!...
Is /c/mutual_aid sick of me yet? (hexbear.net)
I’m too embarrassed of myself to actually check but I am pretty darn sure that I’ve been sent, cumulatively over the however many months I’ve been panhandling here, over a thousand dollars, and it’s all just gone to stupid shit. I could’ve saved at least some of that and bought a fucking van already, and gotten my...
Think the stroke made him into literally a caveman (hexbear.net)
I'm homeless and out of food stamps *already*, after I just got back on them
What happens when someone is chronically off and on starving for months, constantly stressed, and then all of the sudden you give them $300 for groceries? They buy sushi and iced tea and strawberries and other dumb shit and blow it in a week....
Why is "my" cat being an asshole all of the sudden? (hexbear.net)
This is Gregory....
Need $ for a supply run (camping/survival gear, hygeine shit, etc.)
Let’s see uhh vague rough draft list:...
Homeless, need a bike lock, an iPhone cable, cat food, med supplies, and maybe dinner
I have an iPhone 12 Mini which someone gave me probably a year ago now. The other day someone asked to borrow it, then started twacking out and ditched me....
I feel like I'm dying, please help
I haven’t eaten today or yesterday. I wish this would stop happening. I hate being alive....
I've barely eaten all day (friend brought me ice cream this morning), help me DoorDash something because I am fucking starving, please
I put off the food stamps thing, again, because I didn’t sleep well and felt like shit. I’d be in this same boat anyways if I had gotten them fixed, because my food stamps renew on the 2nd....
I've moved on as much as I can
You may have seen my posts about this person I used to be friends with—I wish I could tell you their name, because it’s such a cool name, but alas, they will always be, to you, the person who won’t talk to me anymore, my ex-friend, or them....
I wish I could just be completely alone
I often forget that with one exception I have never, ever, ever been happy with another living thing in the room. I hate speaking—I wish I had been born mute because the anxiety that’s been tied around my neck as long as I can remember makes everything come out wrong. I wish I hadn’t been Narcan’d. When I finally fucking...
An under-examined cause of inflation: unconditional returns
It turns out that accommodating spoiled aristocrats who order shit they don’t need from halfway across the Earth on a whim has a cost, and let me tell you: that cost isn’t coming out of the executives’ salaries!...
Just *one* last time for a while: I'm fucking starving and could use some help buying a burrito, a soda, sour gummy candy, and \*squints\* dental floss
I’m having a pretty fucked off day. Barely ate yesterday, barely ate today. I would probably have my food stamps back in pocket if I didn’t have to babysit a sick friend yesterday (I hate when people tell me I’m not responsible for others’ stupid shit, because I know that—I nail myself to my own cross, I care about...
I'm sober, and I'm hungry
Yesterday I ate like…an orange. This really fucking sucks....
I haven't eaten yet today, once again
Also Creamsicle absolute fucking lost it—in a good way—when whoever you are sent that $5 specifically for him. He bought an orange Fanta....
I'm thinking about ending my...
TW for suicide, and drugs....
18+ A guy tried to join my local org. He said his ideology was "consoc" = conservative socialist [CW: transphobia]
He had OK opinions about imperialism and the class divide. He said that alternative pronouns were “breaking the grammar”, lol! Who will think of the grammar!!!...
It's *very hard* for me to wrap my head around the DPRK, PRC, Vietnam, Cuba, etc., being more democratic and free than the U.S.
I’m not skeptical per se. I’ve just been propagandized so fucking much—I grew up watching those propagandocumentaries on the National Geographic Channel about the DPRK, etc., fr that was what I watched instead of cartoons lol....