I debated posting this pic. I decided not to. I decided to. I opened up my photo editing app to make my hips look slimmer, my stomach less plump, and my forehead less wrinkled. I got disgusted with myself, closed the photo editor, and decided not to post the pic.
Then, I thought, "Fuck it."
So here we are. The pic that has only been edited to darken the corners of the image and brighten the whites of my eyes. Shape-wise and size-wise, this is me.
...I'm seeing hints of a Courtney who went to ground decades ago. I'm trying to be patient with her and not scare her off as she creeps cautiously out of hiding.
In the meantime, there's a whisper of her in that pic up there. Maybe you see her, too.