Transtronaut

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Transtronaut,

I imagine they’d count capital gains in the analysis

lemmy.blahaj.zone/comment/8544719

The NYTimes analysis is just about income taxes

Aren’t you contradicting yourself here?

Transtronaut,

Somebody around here linked this on mangadex a few months ago, and I haven’t been able to stop binge-reading yuri manga since. True story.

Transtronaut,

Is this egg_irl?

Transtronaut, (edited )

Trigger warning: explaining jokes in way too much detail.

The phrasing is a reference to the “Is this a pigeon?” meme (see: knowyourmeme.com/memes/is-this-a-pigeon ). This is meant to indicate that this is clearly not egg_irl, but the topic of the original post seemed like something repressed trans people can relate to in hindsight. It reminded me of a common pattern among eggs where there’s a vague but insistent internal voice (not literally a voice, more like an occasional impulse) telling you to do things that you associate with your actual gender, rather than your assigned gender, with varying effects depending on the person. For example, it generally made me feel uncomfortable without understanding why, leading me to assume I simply didn’t like those things, when in fact that was more or less the opposite of the truth.

Anyway, these sorts of things can make the idea of an unknown, voiceless, internal personality separate from your surface-level persona resonate with trans people. Add the fact that when you’re deeply involved in gender issues and transitioning, it’s so much on your mind that there’s a tendency to interpret everything as being somehow related to gender even when it isn’t, and it seemed like a good fit for the pigeon meme.

Transtronaut,

It’s basically meat sauce between burger buns. I haven’t had one in ages, but they would make frequent appearances in grade school cafeterias and other events involving large amounts of children needing to be fed with low effort. I remember quite liking them; it’s basic, but great comfort food, and easy to eat.

Transtronaut,

You don’t have to vote for Biden. In the primaries, vote for whoever you actually like. In the general, vote for the Democrats’ candidate (however flawed they may be). In neither case are you obligated to frame it as voting for Biden as an individual.

Transtronaut,

Probably the biggest one for me was always feeling discomfort when being referred to or referring to myself as a “man”. I didn’t have any problem with words like “male”, “guy”, “dude”, “lad”, “boy”, “fella”, etc., but “man” was just one step too far, apparently.

Always figured it was just a reaction to my strong distaste for toxic masculinity, and/or a reluctance to grow up. With hindsight, it seems silly that it wasn’t a dead giveaway.

Transtronaut,

Along the same lines: being amused by egg_irl and yet feeling a vague and nebulous yet irresistible sense that it would be dangerous to subscribe and therefore avoiding it.

Still cis tho.

Transtronaut,

Facts. Force push belongs in Star Wars, and nowhere else.

Transtronaut,

You can do all that without force push. Just make a new branch and do the cleanup before the first push there. Allowing force push just invites disaster from junior developers who don’t know what they’re doing. If you want to clean up after them, that’s your business, I guess.

I saw a recent post that 60% of playtime in 2023 was spent on games 6 years or older. What 6+ year old games are you playing?

I haven’t stopped playing Overwatch since it came out, still getting on with friends 2 or 3 nights a week and putting in a few hours (and I’m still awful lol). I also still log on to Battlefield 1943 from time to time to get in a few matches....

Transtronaut,

Just recently I started replaying “VA-11 Hall-A: Cyberpunk Bartender Action”. I’m also working on Rune Factory 4 Special - the remake is only 4 years old, but the original is from 2012. I still periodically fire up Castle Crashers from time to time, and I have yet to give up on my much-procrastinated attempt at Castlevania: Symphony of the Night (the Xbox 360 version).

There are many others, but that’s just off the top of my head.

Any cozy game recommendations?

Hii cuties! I am currently going through quite the amount of evil disgusting and bad dysphoria, so I would really like to distract myself from myself right now… Even though I am not a fan of consumerism, this is the one time I feel it is appropriate to consume some media. I do have a homebrewed switch and a computer running...

Transtronaut,

I haven’t played it in years, but I remember getting really cozy vibes from “VA-11 Hall-A: Cyberpunk Bartender Action”. You basically just talk to customers and hear their stories while serving drinks. I didn’t end up playing all the way to the end, but I remember it being really chill and laid back.

Come to think of it, since I didn’t know I was trans back when I played it, I’m now wondering if some of the cozy vibes came from diffuse, unrecognized gender euphoria via the female protagonist. Been meaning to play it again to see how it strikes me now.

Actually, this is getting me kind of hype to play it; I think I’ll fire it up.

Transtronaut, (edited )

Update: I was right, it’s cozy as fuck.

Also, most of the game is just clicking through dialogue while enjoying synthwave music, which is great for letting your mind escape, but is not for everyone. I’m definitely enjoying it.

Transtronaut,

I guess what’s got me most down lately isn’t the dysphoria per se (although there’s plenty of that), but more the fact that between fatigue and executive dysfunction, I can’t seem to keep up with any aspect of transitioning that takes effort, which is most of them. Lately I’ve pretty much just been taking my HRT pills and shaving my face every 3-4 days. It’s something, but at this rate it’ll be a long time before I can actually make significant progress.

Transtronaut,

Thanks, that helps. ❤️

I’ve actually been wondering about that ADHD angle, but I really didn’t want it to be the case. 😬 It would make sense, though.

I guess there’s not much to do but, as you say, take it a day at a time and try not to beat myself up any more than the dysphoria already is. I’m not too concerned about maintaining any particular pace or “deadline” for transitioning, it’s just frustrating to not be able to chip away at my sources of dysphoria.

Transtronaut,

Ah, yeah - I failed to provide some missing context: having read that early on is what led me to wonder. I think it also said something about ADHD symptoms potentially decreasing as well if you’re lucky, so I’ve been hoping for that outcome. 😅

Transtronaut,

I’ll second this. Finding it in the sidebar was a great help when my egg finally shattered around six months ago.

Transtronaut,

Agreed, it was pretty good until then. But the last paragraph is what made it a great take.

Transtronaut,

It’s like poetry; it rhymes.

Transtronaut,

Neon Genesis Evangelion came out in 1995.

Transtronaut,

After my egg cracked almost 6 months ago now, I went through a lengthy phase where a lot of music would make me burst into tears from sheer relatability. I thought I’d stabilized enough to be over that by now, but just the other day, Peter Gabriel’s “Solsbury Hill” got me good. Those themes of stepping out of the hazy drudgery of your comfort zone to embrace a new reality in the face of general confusion and/or disbelief, and having it feel so very right, are absolutely on point for the trans experience.

The track I stumbled upon early on and keep coming back to is Röyksopp & Robyn’s “Every Little Thing”. It really felt/feels like a call from my inner woman to my repressed AMAB shell, and has become the motivational anthem for my transition.

Transtronaut,

❤️

Transtronaut,

I got that too (I’m on Android/Firefox). I haven’t found a way to remove it, but you can press and drag to move it around, so that it’s at least out of the way.

Transtronaut,

Right, exactly what all store owners want. For potential customers to go somewhere else instead.

Transtronaut,

ROFL, I always wondered if that was intentional or not. Thanks for solving the mystery!

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