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Gwendolyn

@Gwendolyn@eldritch.cafe

Video game playing, gay sandwich eating, heavy metal punk🤘

No alt text = no boost.

She/her.

Some kind of glass-half-full nihilistic witch

🏳️‍🌈🇨🇦

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Gwendolyn, to random
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I've been in a relationship for 22 years and married for 17 years so I never really gave priority to figuring out my sexuality. Since how most people conduct their relationships are so strange to me I figured I must be an oddball and figured it was time to finally work out the parameters of my attraction.

I've landed on gyneromantic demisexual.

At first I was gonna just go with a binary gay demisexual, but honestly, I don't think gender matters to me. If I clocked a guy as "feminine", I could see there being a draw there. That's why I went with gyneromantic.

Welp. That was fun. Back to video games.

fluttergirly, to random
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absolutely incredible comment I just received

Gwendolyn,
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@fluttergirly So insightful.

Gwendolyn, to random
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Reason I don't like honking my horn: I'm scared it's going to deploy the airbag.

LGBTQNation, to random
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Richard Dreyfuss mocks trans youth in bizarre rant at "Jaws" film screening - LGBTQ Nation
https://www.lgbtqnation.com/2024/05/richard-dreyfuss-mocks-trans-youth-in-bizarre-rant-at-jaws-film-screening/?utm_source=flipboard&utm_medium=activitypub

Posted into LGBTQ Nation @lgbtq

Gwendolyn,
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@LGBTQNation @lgbtq "Dreyfuss also reportedly said that singer Barbra Streisand is a “genius,” but he “didn’t listen to her because she is a woman and women shouldn’t have that sort of power.”"

Oh cool. And a misogynist too. Welp. Fuck that guy.

Gwendolyn,
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I mean... all gender based hate kinda stems from misogyny, but most people will at least try to hide it.

Gwendolyn, to random
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Nothing new here. Still playing Phasmophobia. Still watching G-Witch (rewatch).

I checked out the new Powerman 5000. It's alright. I like it, but I'm not gonna recommend it to anyone.

HRT is doing its job. I'm clearly less ashamed of showing my face. Started streaming occasionally.

Gwendolyn,
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Oh! Since I finally got a new PC (donated by amazing people; I can't afford that shit), I've been able to try Control. Had that on my wish list for so long.

Loving it.
Female protag ✅
SCP kinda spookums ✅
Pew pew kascatterkash! ✅
Explore and mystery ✅

#Gaming #VideoGames

Gwendolyn, to random
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Breaking in my new PC with a Phasmophobia stream. Drop by and say hello if you feel like it. Or don't. I'm shy. I'm fine playing by myself :P

https://youtube.com/live/_HyRiWQX3JA

Gwendolyn, to random
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Help! My brain can't let go of the question "I wonder what rice and yogourt taste like together"

Gwendolyn, to random
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Hey! Question: Putting my PC together. Haven't had to install Windows from scratch since I installed Windows 8 from a disc.

I have no working USB thumbdrives and no way to burn a DVD.

I have a hard drive enclosure. Is it possible to write Windows directly to the SSD through the enclosure and then perform setup from there once I toss the SSD into the PC?

Gwendolyn,
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@mdstevens0612 Yeah, that's what I was considering. I might try the partition thing.

I don't have an electronics shop. Nearest buyable USB drive is a 25 minute drive away and I don't have my car today. I guess I could wait, but it's a new PC... of course it's time sensitive. I'm excited! :P

Gwendolyn, to gaming
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Recently picked up Phasmophobia. Honestly, it's kind of a perfect game for me. I love the premise, the game loop, the mystery. The match based setup makes it so freaking replayable.

Gotta say though... The scariest thing in that game is the economy. Even without dying I just find the cash flow is so freaking slow.

I see people with their fully decked out trailers and I can't help but cringe at the thought of them dying. They'd lose so much freaking money.

Gwendolyn,
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@MsHearthWitch I'm usually a single player game kinda gal, but my kid roped me into playing with them. It's fun getting spooked and trying to solve each case as a group... even if it means I have to go in alone while the kid sits in the truck and just watches me running for my life on the cameras... brat 😋

Gwendolyn, to gundam
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As a fan of big robots, I've wanted to get into Gundam for a long time now, but none of the series have really gripped me in a way that made me go "This. I love this".

Recently I watched Mobile Suit Gundam: The Witch From Mercury... and then immediately began rewatching it.

This is it. This is my show. You can't have it. Mine.

It's not perfect, and I would have liked a little more story outside of the school setting, but I love the characters, their stories, and it has some of the coolest mech fights I've ever seen animated.

Gwendolyn,
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@mrdiamondj The whole thing is actually up on Youtube.

And... from what I can tell... it appears to be an official channel.

https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLJV1h9xQ7Hx-MSngXeq-sRbelh5zCVRNI

Gwendolyn, to random
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Anyone know of a decent android to-do app? Preferably one that doesn't require a subscription or like $40 (what a deal! 🙄) to unlock more than 3 items on the list.

Like, if it's good, I can see spending a bit, but I'm a trans janitor. Impulse buy range for me is like $2-3.

Gwendolyn,
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@xerozohar Thanks. That's actually really neat. The way it works is a little simple for what I need, but the whole "breaking things down" feature has me thinking of ways I could make it work. I like that. Finding a place to start on tasks is usually a pretty big hurdle for me. 👍​

Gwendolyn, to gaming
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The whole Mass Effect Trilogy Legendary Edition thingamabob is on a stupid sale right now. So, if you wanted that, and can stomach the DRM. $5.99USD will get you everything. I think I'll be doing a replay... with the copy I just torrented after buying it, because fuck DRM.

https://store.steampowered.com/agecheck/app/1328670/

Gwendolyn, to gaming
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Hrm.
I've avoided Nier: Automata because of the fanbase/fanart, but I just got curious and actually looked up a short video and... it kind of looks like what I wish Bayonetta 3 had been.

Anyone have any experience with it? How open is this? Hub based? JRPG styled? Level based with larger stages?

Gwendolyn,
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@NaClKnight It probably sounds weird coming from someone who's a fan of Bayonetta, but fanservice-y shit just turns me off.

Knowing nothing about the game all I saw was a blindfolded girl in upskirt shot after upskirt shot.

To be clear, I wasn't seeking it out, so it was just whatever kind of crap crossed my timeline. Horny art and guys defending why her attire was necessary. Kinda put me off.

Gwendolyn,
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@mdstevens0612 Hrm. That gives me pause. Well... Just a little. I'm a mechanics first kind of gamer. Story can enhance things, but isn't super necessary.

I kinda love Bayonetta's story and goofy cutscenes.

I'm a weird person :P
Love me some camp.

Gwendolyn,
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@NaClKnight Yeah. Bayonetta's "sexiness" exists within the game world. She owns it. It feels more like the character's choice than a Jessica Rabbit's "I'm just drawn this way".

Yeah. I agree. To each their own. It just served as a poor introduction to the character and story to me.

To contrast, my first exposure to Bayonetta was starting a bike with her middle finger and the Afterburner theme playing, and discussions about dodge offset. I was like... Oh! These fans love cheese and mechanics! I'm home!

I think I'll give it a shot.

Gwendolyn,
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@NaClKnight @spinning_bird

Not sure if that was just for them, or if I was being queried as well, but I'll answer. Personally, I don't think that distinction would matter. I'd still be annoyed. To me, it's about intent and who wants me to see it.

In those shots, it's like a third party (the dev) is pointing up her skirt, elbowing you and goin' 😏

Whether it was more obvious or not, I'd still find it annoying.

I think the problem is the 4th wall. Sexuality is fine, but it should make sense in the absence of the 4th wall.

Gwendolyn,
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@spinning_bird @NaClKnight I'm glad you brought up the bit about identifying with the character.

I've been questioning myself about why I feel this way and was trying to process why despite being into gals, I wasn't a fan of fanservice. Like, sure I like what I see, but not like this, and I think you nailed it. I can't help but put myself in her place and i guess there's like a feeling of second hand violation.

Gwendolyn, to random
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Y'know. I hate venting online. Like... I don't want to be fishing for sympathy, and I don't want people to just go "Oh, it's that Negative Nelly over there. Remember when she used to talk about games? I think I'm gonna unfollow"

I just need a space that I can vent, that I feel like I can just be secure in going off for like a day with all of the shit that's bothering me. I don't need pats on the back, or "there there"s. I just need a place that there's at least the chance of people hearing me, without also being a place where people want to hear other things.

I dunno. Maybe I've been burned too many times by people who loved what I've said, until I had a bad day, and then because THEY can't even take a moment of discomfort, label me as some kind of negative whiny complainer.

Like... fuck! I have emotions. We all have emotions. Why is there this weird discomfort/taboo about experiencing negative emotions in public?

No wonder people feel so fucking alone.

(I'm all over in this toot. Obviously not collected, and my point it scattered. Take from it what you will, or whatever. Thanks for witnessing the fact that I shouted something into the void.)

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