it's so weird to me that anyone thinks i am attractive in any way
i spent so much of my life hating my body and there is so much inertia behind that
i remember back in September when i first entertained the idea i may be attractive; and people were like "uh yes? you are?" ... and like... i now believe that other people believe this, but it's so incredibly weird to me still
the idea is so foreign that even though i want it to be true i cannot believe it, despite ample evidence it is true
