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aeva

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I'm a just a small town AAA graphics programmer in Chicago. I worked on Gears 5 and Gears Tactics. My work is secret, but my personal projects are not.

I like to post about my personal research, various side projects, and I like to think out loud a lot. Expect weird humor, esoteric ramblings, and occasionally also art I made out of math. I like implicit surface modeling the normal amount. Amateur spoonie. 🏳️‍⚧️

Curses are just blessings with caveats.

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kzurawel, to random
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I started using Linux in the early 2000’s because of how much I despised Microsoft. I decided I was never going to work at a .Net shop so I wouldn’t have to deal with Windows.

Anyway, I’ve been messing around with F# for the last few weeks (on a Mac) and it’s really nice? Like, I really like writing it. It might become my go-to language if this keeps up. What on earth is going on.

aeva,
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@kzurawel times change 🤷‍♀️

aeva, to random
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I've been aware of the idea since my late teens or early twenties or so, but I've really come to appreciate in the last couple of years to what degree the information your senses tell you is subjective to the point of approaching total fiction.

aeva,
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For an example, the other day while I was preoccupied brushing my teeth, I felt something between two toes. Immediately I assumed it must be an ant crawling on me, which freaked me out. When I was done brushing my teeth, I found it was instead very definitely just a small rock.

aeva,
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Chronic pain can also work this way sometimes. When you experience a distressing injury and don't understand the real severity of it, this can create a feedback loop of fear that trains you to over-interpret signals as pain, which remains with you for a very long time after the original cause of the pain has been treated. This of course is very frustrating and difficult to treat, because the pain is still very much real despite being a misinterpretation, and doctors are kinda shit about this.

aeva,
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I think on some level most Art also works like this. Something is constructed for the primary purpose of being perceived and interacted with in some way (even if only passively). You quickly learn (or maybe even just instinctually understand) that such things exist in a broad category, and then gradually build up a mythology about the category itself that elevates all things within it (one might call this "pretension").

aeva,
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Naturally, you can play with this (which in turn is More Art), and doing so tends to make some people very, very mad, because you're fucking with the comfortable illusion they built up which they aren't even aware of. Readymades are a great example of this.

aeva,
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There's something I read a few years ago that I think about a lot, where it is theorized that the psychological mechanism behind tool use is this: we habitually incorporate objects into our own body schemas, which allows us to both operate the tool without extra cognitive load, but also this creates new temporary ad hoc sense through interpretation.

aeva,
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Which I think applies to everything from driving a car to using a computer. The border between your mind and the world around you is not your body, but a mutable conceptual field that surrounds you and can sometimes extend very far away. This can feel transcendental at times, but also can feel hellish.

aeva,
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This all creates a strange problem I do not have an answer for. As your ability to perceive the world and yourself on a very fundamental level is both subjective and malleable, why is it that being intentional about it considered to be sole purview of eccentrics (artists, kinky people, game developers, body modification, and so on)? Why would you choose to reject having such agency? I can't understand it.

aeva,
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@esther_alter I love driving manual transmission cars because of how it feels once you have the mental model needed to operate it

aeva,
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@flyingsaceur These are all examples where the interface is firmly grounded in the workings and consequences of the world the professional lives in. None of this is exceptional. Children regularly demonstrate the same thing through play. It's something that's just intrinsic to how humans think and reason about the world.

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@brennen ahahaha that's probably the better way to read it

aeva,
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@cliffordheath maybe fear's the wrong word but I'm writing from my own experience with regular cervicogenic headaches following an injury about a year and a half ago. There's fear when you don't know why it keeps getting worse and when you can't get an appointment with a doctor for months and all you can do is try to keep it together through your work day and spend the rest of your time immobilized on a hot pad wondering if this is just how it's going to be for the rest of your life.

aeva,
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@cliffordheath If the conclusion you are taking from my thread is that some people are less human than others, I'm sorry, but I have either grossly misrepresented my ideas, or you are projecting something into my words that was never there, but either way I am genuinely worried to hear this.

aeva, to random
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everyone's on The Internet 2 now you guys are all living in the past

aeva,
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The Internet 2: Al Gore's Revenge

aeva,
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@ruojake it's all yours now https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dead_Internet_theory

aeva,
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@CliftonR no that's "web 2" you're probably referencing which was a different thing

aeva,
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@CliftonR ok but if we send you back to 2014, you still only get two good years of nostalgia before you have to experience all of the other stuff over again

aeva,
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@CliftonR ah, that's a bad year to relive :(

consider: 2024 there's was a lot of cool stuff going on in 2024 let's go back in time to 2024 instead

aeva,
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@CliftonR like there's this great piece of art I've made, though I'm having difficulty finding a suitable way to record it...

aeva,
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@CliftonR oh christ it's almost 5am. time to make like a tree and pass out

TomF, to random
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Just got caught up on The Discourse of CPU design and this article: https://hackaday.com/2024/03/21/why-x86-needs-to-die/

Let me skip to the chase - it argues that x86 is shit because it's got variable-length encoding, is out-of-order, and does speculative execution. It then says ARM and RISC-V are much better.

Er... except they also do all those things in the fast chips. Which the writer clearly didn't know. So they're not just wrong, they're ignorant.

aeva,
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@MissAemilia uh let me get back to you on that once I learn it

aeva,
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@MissAemilia it's 2am

aeva,
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@MissAemilia oh I don't sleep until around 4am. 2am is for spacing out

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