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IzabelaKaramia

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trans woman, I write good poems, ADHD, autist, type 1 diabetic, love to study languages, dx exocrine pancreatic insufficiency Dec 2022. Runner not currently running because of years being undernourished. Now walking some and feeling better, convinced I will fulfill a promise I made in a poem The Pale Horse

Definitely a fan of Gruyère cheese.
You can never have enough elephants.
I'll close the door behind us, a tiny tap.
It's where museums tuck away the weird.

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Awake. I slept better last night though I still need more sleep. Weather should be much better today and I look forward to taking a walk and a cycle ride after work. I had had some activity for fourteen straight days and I missed the mental recharging that can give me.

I've eaten breakfast and fed Ginza hers.

Get through today and then there's only 2 more days of work until a 3 day weekend. 3 day weekends should be the standard anyhow really.

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But even if I lost mental recharging time yesterday because of the rain, I probably gained physical recharging with the rest and how I ate 4 meals, with dinner being particularly large. So yesterday was net positive that way.

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Sometimes I wonder if all the years where I wasn't getting all the nutrition I needed numbed me to my sense of hunger. But now that I am getting everything I need and my body can feel itself getting better, it's lighting up my sensation of hunger to try to get me to eat more and more...

and maybe then I can finally feel about as well as may be possible for me.

But wow there are times I just get so so hungry.

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Still overcast and chilly damp outside, the temp still hasn't reached 50F. Can't say I'm too impressed with the PNW's reluctance to warm up to properly warm temperatures in the late spring.

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Always make sure to tell your kitty cat they're a good cat every day.

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Slowly getting myself ready to take an easy ride on the bicycle. Just gonna do some loops around the home basically. I've decided it'd be good to make this week pretty much all easy and cut back on time and mileage. I've been increasing every week in activity time and distance for 5 or 6 weeks and it'd be smart to let my body have extra recovery time so it can catch up.

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8 years ago on this date in 2016, a year where I ran at least one mile each day and ran more than 2000 miles for the year, I ran 4.6 miles.

4 days later I started a somewhat impromptu goal of running at least 10 miles each for 10 straight days, taking advantage of the Memorial Day weekend so I'd have an extra day off from work in that time. On workdays I'd run before and after work to collect the 10 miles.

That end of May surge got me close to 250 miles running that month.

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I had 7 more months of good running left in my legs. And then running stopped feeling fun and good though I persisted for a while after.

But I didn't know then I had outrun my nutritional input for too long thanks to exocrine pancreatic insufficiency growing worse in me. Didn't get that diagnosed until the end of 2022.

It's been a long climb back to get to here and now where at least I'm walking and cycling again.

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All right time to go ride. Hope to do around 7-10 easy paced miles. I hope it doesn't feel too damp and chilly.

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2 loops for a 7.5 mile bike ride. I would have liked to do a 3rd loop but it's just too chilly and damp out there for me today.

Now I'm gonna eat a quick meal, hope that the weather actually clears to some sunshine and take a walk in about 2 to 2.5 hours.

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Took a 1.8 mile walk and immediately ate dinner after it.

One thing that shows my legs have more strength now is that today when I did my ride, I kept it in the biggest gear the old mountain bike has. It's pretty flat round here but there had been some places with enough slope to them I would shift down a few gears, but today my legs said I didn't need to do that anymore.

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Slowly waking up. A hard lift to get myself out of bed this morning, it still feels like the disrupted sleep of Sunday night is affecting me, plus I didn't really sleep great last night and I also have to remember how I'm a lot more physically active now.

So the primary goal today is go easy. It's going to rain too. I will at least try to do a walk of 30 minutes and maybe a short easy cycle ride if the rain isn't too heavy.

More and more Ginza likes it if I put a hand on her

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when we sleep together at night. I do that and she'll roll onto her side and she then likes it if I curl my hand around her and against her belly. Guess that makes her feel very safe and happy.

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I hope I have a better brain today. Yesterday's brain was pretty crappy and I had lots of trouble focusing. Maybe why I felt such relief during the easy paced cycle ride where I didn't have to think about things, I could just lollygag along and look around me at the world without thinking too hard about any of it.

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Feels so chilly and damp today in the PNW. Ginza is snoozing on the bed and I'd love to get back underneath the covers and sleep alongside her.

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Sometimes it amazes me to think how a year ago I would try to keep a watch out the windows to see if I might spot Ginza and go out to offer her food or treats.

Now she sleeps next to me every night and likes it when I put a hand on her. Still she won't sit on my lap, although there are times when I'm sitting in a chair at the computer and she comes to rub against my legs and I can see her looking and thinking, "What if I jump up there?"

So maybe one day she'll become a lap cat.

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Decided to change my avatar to the selfie I took back on Sunday. HRT has really changed my face a lot and I'm happy with how it's changed.

Though I admit my face seems wildly babyish looking for a woman who is 54 years old.

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It's miserably wet and rainy outside. I might not even take a walk today.

Also chilly enough I had to find the cardigan sweater which I've only been rarely using the past few weeks.

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Super wet and gross out there, unless there's a break in the precip I'll probably have a zero day for walking and cycling.

I'm okay with that. It might even be better than doing anything like that anyhow, but maybe especially so in weather like this which could make me feel miserable and weaken the immune system.

I have done the Awesomiser drill once today since it can be done inside. I'll probably do it again before going to bed.

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Cooking up chicken thighs in the cast iron pan.

Rain continues outside, at times heavy enough to hear it against the windows.

Looking forward to eating a big dinner. More nutrients is always a good choice for me.

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I ate a gigantic dinner. So so hungry.

So today is just going to be a rest day from physical activity and take in a lot of calories and nutrients. That's a good day for me with where I am currently. It should move me along to a healthier me.

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I need to go real easy today. Last evening my falling asleep period got disrupted and it cost me at least 2 hours of sleep and plus I didn't sleep deeply. So I lost important recovery time after a day of the most physical activity I've had in years.

I'm grumpy about it.

Soon gonna make my breakfast and feed Ginza her breakfast.

It's gonna be a long day.

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The amazing thing about murder mittens is how they have the adorable toe beans.

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One thing I'm going to miss from last year was the ice cream truck. No chance of one showing up out this way.

That's why I bought ice cream bars this last weekend. Ice cream seems like a good fueling option for the fact I'm walking and cycling now.

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Easy walk and easy bike ride after I clocked out from work. Enjoyed the ride mostly though I didn't enjoy the wind which seemed to get stronger during its last 15 minutes.

I've eaten dinner. And wow, I'm about ready to dive into bed. Last night's sleep getting disrupted was really hard on me. Thinking felt like a struggle all day long.

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@ninetiger

Yeah, that's what came around where I lived last year. I think I got 4 or 5 milkshakes during the summer. My big difficulty was remembering to keep some cash on hand because they only took cash.

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