Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 179 , Wednesday 24/04/2024
TL:DR Wednesday walkies, cooking foibles & failures in communication were on the cards today.
Up early this morning as Mrs S. was in the office .
Managed to get out for a walk, my feet are so very sore at the moment, it really isn’t helping motivating me to get out.
I wish I were better at inter-relational communication , I am constantly hindered by the fear of hurting folk I care for & in turn being hurt by their reactions.
Some of this is experience based, being ND means that I struggle with social communication , some of it I can copy, a lot of the subtle , subconscious stuff I cannot.
I was talking to one of the Peeps about recipes yesterday & they suggested that they were easy to change to fit circumstances. This made me uncomfortable ,at the time I brushed it off based on the fact that I can’t really cook , basic stuff yes but not anything complex, mostly because I cannot focus for that long , I get easily distracted if its an activity with periods of inactivity.
But I think, in retrospect , that what actually made me uncomfortable was the idea of changing a fixed recipe.
In areas that I know well I am quite comfortable making changes on the fly , but in areas, like cooking, & laundry (I know 😆 ) I feel anxious & start worrying that things will go wrong & it will be because I failed to follow the instructions. I’m sure this is down to my ASD.
Managed to squeeze in a little ESO between the end of the maintenance slot & Mrs S. getting home.
Watching ‘Death in Paradise ‘ at the moment , having cooked tea & done the washing up.
Final Thoughts.
There are so many facets to autism, I’m learning new stuff everyday !
Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖
