Finally checked off a maintenance chore I've been putting off for months because I didn't have the spoons.
I feel really good lately. Motivated. Enjoying things. I'm also trying to be very mindful of how I'm feeling, so I don't wind up burning myself out again. I'm trying to find a sustainable balance.
Part of me is hopeful and even confident that this is my new baseline, and a sustainable balance is possible.
Part of me is absolutely terrified this is just the same cycle and in a month or two, I'm going to be completely exhausted and have zero energy to do anything.
@dave@actuallyautistic Shhh don't tell the universe but me too... got a little bit of optimism going, got some monumental cleaning and decluttering done yesterday without getting sick from the physical activity... I even feel motivated to do more?! I am going to enjoy the good feelings and optimism while I have them, bc I could wake up tomorrow or the next day not in this state. I hope you can sustain yours and have some really enjoyable days, too.
I was talking with a client today about "hardwiring in" the noticing and celebration of small things.
They've decided when they "stick" a thing that they are trying to do, they'll stop, really feel the achievement, and then walk away from trying for a bit.
I'm still learning how to find that little spot of good even when other things seem overwhelming.
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